Seems like I'm the only person still pregnant! It's been great to see
Lu-Lu back and hear about the arrival of Kieran. I think it's strange
that in such a small group, we have two mums with narcolespy!

I'm now 30+3, things are a mixture of good and bad with me, good is that
my symphysis pubis pain is way better than it was at this stage with my
last pregnancy, my hip has also been pretty good, still better at this
stage than when I actually got pregnant! In part I think that is just
time post surgery. I've been working with a great physio, very different
to anyone I've worked with before, I wish I'd found her a few months
ago! My main moan physically is my right rib cage, shoulder and upper
arm, it's very painful and painkillers don't seem to have much effect
and it's a difficult area to rest, I can't exactly stop breathing on one
side!

The bad is that I seem to have been struck by antenatal depression, at
first it seemed like stopping taking meds for narcolepsy as well as the
typical 1st trimester tiredness and then it not really lifting was
causing me to feel as if everything was getting on top of me because
there just wasn't enough awake time. So at about 20 weeks, we tried a
small dosage of an alertness med and it did seem to slow things down for
a while, but in the last 4-5 weeks it's become much more obvious that
I'm generally down, not coping, anxious etc. I got a recommendation from
a friend for a psyhciatrist specialising in women's issues, but it's
still a couple of weeks until the first available appointment, at the I
made it I was still thinking I just wanted to touch base with someone,
have a plan, that kind of thing, in case of PPD, which I had after my
first. I finally admitted this weekend that this approach wasn't going
to work, I had a problem NOW and sitting on it wasn't going to help
anyone, so called up and made an urgent appointment with my primary care
doctor and have started back on Zoloft. I'm not sure how I feel about
that. I'm also lined up to see a counsellor, not sure how I feel about
that either!

To add to all of this, I've been having lots of contractions, not
particularly unusual for me, but they've never changed my cervix before,
but now I'm 70% effaced and very soft, which is more change than 6
hours before DD was born. Fetal fibronectin test 10 days ago was
negative, but that only tells you birth is very unlikely within 2 weeks.
We have an appointment with our midwife today, so we'll discuss then
what, if anything we do next, currently, I'm supposed to be taking
things easy and have been prescribed terbutaline for when I have more
than 6 contractions in an hour, but I've had to stop taking it as it was
making my anxiety even worse.

Cheers
Anne