Why suicide?? Because I love your whole happily ever after thing
1) Some people don't get a "happily ever after" or a "make it up to you".
2) You are still permanently punished and banned from my family and
community for life. It's your godawful yuppie idea that you can make it all
up. You and I don't have the same assumptions, all of those years of your
inexcusable silence. I love your asshole privileged ideas of what "ails"
me....it shows we didn't start at the same place, so you need to divest
yourself of those false notions about yourself.
2) You can't make me happy. It's the asshole ignorant yuppie idea that you
can be "happy" that ticks me off in the first place. I realize that is
really unassimilated of me, and unpatriotic and unamerican.
3) I really believe to my core that you are acculturated or assimilated or
brainwashed. Your whole problem is that you are trying to be "happy". You
are always thinking of your "goals" in life.
4) I don't want to be around you, I am just too different from you
culturally. I don't have "goals" in life and wasn't raised to have them.
It's clear from the way you have behaved toward me that WE ARE NOT THE SAME.
5) I am convinced that you have a pathological inability to understand why I
am so disappointed with you.
6) By the way, my disappointment in you is no surprise to me. You are right
now exactly where I thought you would be. Go back to the sentimental bad
faith world you were nourished in.
7) I have no desire to be happy and that is not my goal.
8) We are angry at you because we have some fundamental cultural
differences. I am loving all of your "answers" by the way. That's great
that you are not an idiot and are sensitive and all!! That doesn't make you
more like me. It doesn't mean we have anything in common. You just didn't
get it done.
9) I never wanted you in my life. You think you are getting something done
and as far as my world is concerned, you aren't. It isn't even possible to
be who you are and get done what you think you are getting done.
10) You are a hurtful obstacle to me.
11) What a sunshiney positive all american guy you are. Why on earth would
someone not want to be happy. Did your education and head start teach you
why someone doesn't want to be happy. What a moron you look like that you
try SO hard and you can't figure that one out. Keep answering my questions.
It is sick and hurtful the way your life crashes into mine, you are not
welcome in it. I just hope you find some **** poor substitute of me to be
sorry to because I am not giving you a chance to be sorry to me. I am sick
of living with your "future". Learn that people are shaped by experience
not essence and how the **** could we have anything in common. This is why
you are a thief and again you are really deaf to that.
12) Try studying philosophy and religion next time instead of being all
talented and cultural. You're still not smart enough to compete with me.
Thanks again for "learning" so you could be like me.
13) I have lost all hope for you learning. You keep trying to "learn" and
"improve" and you always have a "goal" always thinking about the "future"
and you seem really poorly educated that you think these things matter.
I DON'T WANT TO BE HAPPY AND I DON'T HAVE A GOAL. Stop buying me like it is
going to give you some encouragement, this is RAPE and exploitation. Again,
I have physically and emotionally hurt myself enough because of you, so has
my family, just take the fact that you started out cheating and incorrect
and get on with your life. I feel sorry for you. BYE.
14) I am sick of your "goals" in life and the way you fold me up like a dead
body into some story you tell yourself. This is arrogance. It is extremely
hurtful that you think you don't have to be sorry about anything.
15) What is really sad is how there is no hope for you. The only way you
can be like me is to get rid of me so you can take my place. You really
can't be me or learn what I have learned and I am sick of you trying to
displace me. What you are doing to me is a crime. What you are doing to my
family is a crime. It's the way you stick your nose in everything.
All the education in the world won't change the fact that there is a
fundamental flaw in the way you operate.
On a final and most important note, IT IS TRAGIC to see how you steal and
appropriate from me, all in the name of being a "friend" or helping......and
you have no idea that you are doing this or how to fix it. You are so blind
and dumb, you don't realize that this is the reason I don't live or work
with people like you, you are TRAGICALLY blind to your flaws and you have
Trying really hard is not going to make you unflawed. Quit helping me,
trying to be my friend, or paying attention to me. YOU JUST DON'T
UNDERSTAND, that is no excuse to hurt me physically and emotionally then
broadcast from far away how "sorry" you are.
At least you can't make up for it, maybe you'll finally "learn" in the way I
think you should "learn". You do even more damage because I have to spend
years thinking why are you so ignorant and destructive and hurtful, and I
have to think about how you have to live with the guilt and the blind spots
for the rest of your life.