'Kate wrote in message ...
On Sun, 4 Jan 2004 00:15:32 +0000 (UTC), "Andrew"

Just a bitter rant. Tonight I went on a binge (solo) as tomorrow my
daughter
is due back with her mother and I am just hoping and praying she comes
back
from Sweden. I think she will but I don't know. The bitter rant part is
that
people left because it was too hard the life we had and to try to let
people
relax the year someone left they had one holiday in St Lucia, three
holidays
in Zambia where they eventually settled and numerous nights out with old
school friends suddenly discovered from back in 79 all in the one year.
Also
they only worked part time to make life easier. Muggins just worked,
looked
after kid and hoped other party would be able to relax after all the work
they had put in looking after the house etc and had no holidays.

sorry guys and I fully expect to be flamed. I am bitter. Right now I am
bloody bitter. (also a bit drunk) I think I gave everything. For three
years
I took no break no holiday no weekend etc and now for the past year I
have
the same but I am also mummy, daddy, breadwinner, there are no weekend
breaks due to the country boundaries I am doing it 24/7 365 but it was
'hard' for other people???? I really thought I was doing the best for my
family. In hindsight I probably should have stepped back and looked at
human
issues but you want to give everything you can and the best you can etc
etc
etc. If you want me to slow down then tell me FFS! I am not a mind
reader! I
now do the dad, the mum, the work,the kids play, I attend every
performance
of every school play she is in, I pay the school fees, the housing costs,
I
talk to the teachers when I think there are issues, do the cooking, pick
up,
transport, minding and I don't ask a thing from anyone. I am human too,
its
tough.I could use help. This Xmas only two people remembered me and sent
me
cards, my mother and my accountant. I gotta tell you it hurts. when you
marry you lose the single friends, when you get a kid you tend to lose
the
ones without, when you split you are just a pariah. well, stuff the lot
of
you world. when i get back on top ....

that boot you see in your face is gonna be mine!!!

I know that feeling... felt that way during that exhausting first years.
It's a hard job that you're doing. It takes time to get use to the
amount of responsibility and to working through exhaustion but
eventually either the kids grow up or we get better at it because it
becomes manageable. Once it's more manageable, the anger goes away too.

Regards,
'Kate


Thanks,

I like to think I am not angry normally though

Andrew