I'm still here...but I'm not 'back' anymore

Elfanie wrote:
Apparently this baby isn't wanting to stick around too long. Still
waiting for the bleeding to start, but the pregnancy test that was
positive for a week (faintly) have faded and turned negative. I expect
to start soon...

I'm sorry. The waiting is so difficult. Sometimes I wonder if it
would be easier if we knew less.

I just had a similar wait. My milk supply went up just after 9 weeks
and I thought it was a very bad sign. I had a quick ultrasound and saw
my baby, looking perfect to me, except for having no heartbeat. Even
though it was pretty clear to me that my baby was dead, my doctor
didn't want to officially confirm it since the ultrasound tech wasn't
there. In the last couple weeks I've been wishing it was just a
terrible mistake while being completely frusterated that I still had
morning sickness and was continuing to show more and more. I finally
miscarried this week just a few days before the 12 weeks at which we
had originally planned to announce the pregnancy. Looking at the only
bright side that I can see now, I no longer feel nauseated.

It seems like the moment we get a positive pregnancy test, life and
many plans revolve around the baby. In addition to the immediate loss,
it is hard to adapt to the change.

--Betsy

betsy wrote:
Elfanie wrote:
Apparently this baby isn't wanting to stick around too long. Still
waiting for the bleeding to start, but the pregnancy test that was
positive for a week (faintly) have faded and turned negative. I
expect to start soon...

I'm sorry. The waiting is so difficult. Sometimes I wonder if it
would be easier if we knew less.

I just had a similar wait. My milk supply went up just after 9 weeks
and I thought it was a very bad sign. I had a quick ultrasound and
saw my baby, looking perfect to me, except for having no heartbeat.
Even though it was pretty clear to me that my baby was dead, my doctor
didn't want to officially confirm it since the ultrasound tech wasn't
there. In the last couple weeks I've been wishing it was just a
terrible mistake while being completely frusterated that I still had
morning sickness and was continuing to show more and more. I finally
miscarried this week just a few days before the 12 weeks at which we
had originally planned to announce the pregnancy. Looking at the only
bright side that I can see now, I no longer feel nauseated.

It seems like the moment we get a positive pregnancy test, life and
many plans revolve around the baby. In addition to the immediate
loss, it is hard to adapt to the change.

--Betsy

I'm sorry for your loss, Betsy. Hugs.
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((((Hugs)))) Betsy

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Elfanie wrote:
Apparently this baby isn't wanting to stick around too long. Still
waiting for the bleeding to start, but the pregnancy test that was
positive for a week (faintly) have faded and turned negative. I expect
to start soon...

I'm sorry. The waiting is so difficult. Sometimes I wonder if it
would be easier if we knew less.

I just had a similar wait. My milk supply went up just after 9 weeks
and I thought it was a very bad sign. I had a quick ultrasound and saw
my baby, looking perfect to me, except for having no heartbeat. Even
though it was pretty clear to me that my baby was dead, my doctor
didn't want to officially confirm it since the ultrasound tech wasn't
there. In the last couple weeks I've been wishing it was just a
terrible mistake while being completely frusterated that I still had
morning sickness and was continuing to show more and more. I finally
miscarried this week just a few days before the 12 weeks at which we
had originally planned to announce the pregnancy. Looking at the only
bright side that I can see now, I no longer feel nauseated.

It seems like the moment we get a positive pregnancy test, life and
many plans revolve around the baby. In addition to the immediate loss,
it is hard to adapt to the change.

--Betsy