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Hello, As some of you know most of what my daughter and I have been
going through I want to share in hopes someone can enlighten me. It has been just about 8 months now since she and the father of her baby split up. I knew it was gonna be difficult for her to adjust and accept this. Back in October she went haywire, calling him saying she didn't want to live , she had even taken a bottle of Advil one night and called who she thought was him , but it was his dad(paternal grandfather) said "I took a bottle of pills goodbye" and hung up the phone. He of course called the house back and woke me up and told me what happened. After that The kids continued to call eachother and harrass eachother and it eventually reached a point where she threatened to take the baby to California and they would never see her.Then they of course went into the emergency custody thing two weeks after she applied for support.Using her mental health and the babies safety as the reason and I really don't blame them for being concerned although I talked often to the paternal grandfather and assured him I would never allow such a thing to happen and I myself would hunt her down should that ever happen. I also told him it was lashing out that she was doing and I felt it was not something she would actually attempt. That said.....we had put into place therapy and a new P-doc to start new meds and try to reel my daughter in. The new doc felt she was not being treated correctly and felt bipolar was not her condition. He feels she is ADHD and severly depressed. Finally a month ago or so she started a new med Strattera for the ADSHD and at first I thought it was a miracle ! Lately, the past 3 days all hell has broke lose once again. She has been avoiding the baby , angry outbursts at me if I question her. Last night we went round and round and once I felt she was o.k. enough and went to bed I went to bed.this morning I woke up to this e-mail from her, I will give a little space before it to warn that the language is not nice. The spelling is due to her learning disabilities. She is 17 yrs. old. I am at a loss . As I read this I couild barely see it through the tears streaming down my face . I just don't know how to help her anymore ? What do you think ? mom you think i want my life this way you think i want to hate waken up in the morning to hate bein here to hate my life i should be happy i should be ok wit this **** hole of a life but im not i cant smile and mean it anymore i cant be happy and at times the only way i am is if im sleepin and not consions to this world jimmys gone out of mylife and out of jaimes and its my falt jaime will have to bounce back and forth wether she lives with me or him and its my falt iv cause this much **** in her life so yeah i have backed off cause god only knows what i will **** up for her next im stuck in this town for the next at least 18years wich i sure as hell dont want she has to go to school with the ****ed up kids in bangor because of me i have to live the rest of my life alone and unhappy because i ****ed up me and jimmy and hes the only one that made me happy hes the one that change my life around and no one will ever do that for me ever again this is my life misareabule and alone because i can never be happy with out him and i wont be and i will have to live with that till i die and only god knows if i will have to even affter that i want to disaper i dont want to be here not like this not always thinkin what is jimmy doin is he happy dose he think of me dose he cry when he dose dose he wish things never went this way dose he love me did he ever love me when i talked to him on the net i asked him if he ever did love me and he said he thought he did but he didn't so two years of my life was a lie and i cant live with that i want him to hurt like he hurt me i want him to cry i want him to feel like his life is over and this is what will distro anything i have worked for my love and my hate for him and what he has done to me what he has done |
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"Bev" wrote in message ups.com... snip the background stuff That said.....we had put into place therapy and a new P-doc to start new meds and try to reel my daughter in. The new doc felt she was not being treated correctly and felt bipolar was not her condition. He feels she is ADHD and severly depressed. Finally a month ago or so she started a new med Strattera for the ADSHD and at first I thought it was a miracle ! Have you done any research on the medication yet? Here's a link that is kind of interesting, and provides many more links in context within the page. http://www.crazymeds.org/strattera.html It is now becoming understood that pretty much the only anti-depressant that is succussful in teens is Prozac. Strattera is new and without long term studies available so who knows. Lately, the past 3 days all hell has broke lose once again. Your daughter's pdoc will need to know this, make an appointment for her to visit ASAP as in RFN. It takes time and patience for a new med to work, sometimes even as long as 2 months before you can see any benefits. This behaviour could be a side effect from the medication, or, it could be symptomatic and only now manifesting as part of the brain chemicals are being impacted. What if perfectly clear is that for 3 days now your daughter is very ill and needs her doctor. Make the call Bev!! snipping again for a bit of privacy's sake..... The poor girl, my heart is breaking for her. I'm at my computer Bev, Lisa |
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Hi, Bev.
I'm so sorry you're all having such a hard time. The first thing that occurs to me is: is she taking her meds? They often stop, you know. They stop because they feel so much better that they think they don't need them. And they stop because they *hate* having to take meds. It feels as if there's something inherently bad about taking meds for mental health issues, a view which society reinforces vigorously. That's one reason I get very, very disturbed when I see people using mental health for purposes of ridicule; that societal attitude causes excruciating damage to young people, especially. Anyway. I know that it's very, very common, especially with a helpful drug, for kids to experiment with going off. And they'll lie about it. The only way to be sure is to make 'em take it in front of you and watch them swallow. I didn't do that, myself, but instead kept open and supportive and she eventually owned up when she'd gone off her meds. You can also count them, but that's not foolproof, 'cause if they know they'll flush 'em and then you'll be really confused. So probably I'd wait for a calm moment. I'd sympathise with her feelings of loss and rejection, validate that they're understandable and legitimate feelings, mention that although you know that they feel eternal, they really will subside, times really will get better. Then I'd ask if she might've forgotten her meds for a bit. Try to be very non threatening and non accusatory. Let her know that you know it's frustrating to need them and it's not surprising if she's experimenting with going off of them. Another thing I'll mention is that for us, one way that I first could tell that recovery was underway, however slowly, was not the degree of awfulness of the 'episodes' of distress, but rather, the distance between them. At first, the really rough patches were separated by hours or at best, a few days. Gradually, that became weeks. It was a couple of weeks or more before I realized how much farther apart the problems were coming. So try to think through - you had a good patch - is this episode further away from the last one than they've been, or are they closer together, or what? That can tell you a lot. With respect to the suicidal behaviour, I know what a line it is to walk with that one. On the one hand, I personally have clear and direct experience with successful suicide in a close relative, so I'm definitely not inclined to underestimate the potential for completion. Especially with teenagers, who are impulsive, it's important to stay very alert. On the other hand, I know how you don't want to buy into suicide gestures and talk as strategies for getting support and sympathy. My tightrope act on that one involved making a pact with her around both of us promising to talk to each other immediately if either of us was to feel like suicide (I wasn't in that place, but I felt the reciprocity mattered). Then, when she said she was suicidal, I would ask her very matter of factly whether she needed me to be with her for her safety. She seemed pretty able to assess that. I would also, then, debrief her on...specifically, what would you like to change? What are the steps we can take together towards that change? I would remind her that she had all the time in the world to make changes in her life, that although they wouldn't happen overnight I would help and she could do it, and that all that had to happen was one step towards one change at a time. The goal here was to empower her in a healthier way, and get her to see that she could take control over her life one piece at a time. I tried very hard to avoid promoting victimhood, even though she quite legitimately *was* a victim of many things on many occasions, because I wanted to teach her that whatever happened *to* her, she could still call her own shots with respect to how she responds to life events. I knew she was buying in when I heard from a parent of a student that she had explained this in detail to him in response to his complaints about his homework. :-) With respecdt to her self-blame, try to give her the concept that looking backwards at our mistakes is useful only insofar as it helps us decide what to do and what not to do in the future. You want her to understand that it's not only ok, it's a *good* thing to learn the lesson and then move on. After you've learned the lesson, guilt becomes crippling and counterproductive rather than helpful. Tell her that she can safely give up guilt every time she takes a step in the forward direction to make things better. Looking at her overall written expression, I'd be fascinated to see what her psychoeducational evaluation says about the specifics of her learning difficulties. There's no question at all that she was at very high risk to begin with, of developing depression and acting out, given the evidence with respect to LD. She can't have had it easy in school, or out of it.She has to have had a brutal time with peers. She deserves some affirmation for having stuck it out as long and as well as she did. School is a very unkind place for kids with the type of difficulty her writing suggests. Anyway, take heart. When you're in it it feels as if it will never end, and you can't imagine how they can go from being so very sick, to health. But they can. Mine has. She will graduate this June, she's working three to five days a week at a coffee bar, she's got an absolutely delightful, sensible, and healthy boyfriend and she's making good, sensible decisions about her future. We haven't had her 'go off' in such a long time now, I can't remember the last time. And never without a clear catalyst, any more. She also recognises the need for her medication (Paxil) and stays on it responsibly, on her own. Hasn't messed that up in ages and ages either. So try to keep focused on the hope that there very genuinely is. I can remember thinking it would never end; she would never be well. I don't know when I began to believe she could, and WOULD, really, truly, be healthy again, but now, I know it for sure. It can happen for you too. Go slowly, hang in there, support her, love her when she's most unloveable, keep her baby safe and healthy, and remind yourself every day that what you're doing can and will make a difference. The kids who make it are always the ones whose parents stuck with the program. The parents don't have to get everything right. They just have to be there, and show that they care, and do their best. Good luck to you all. Cele On 8 Mar 2005 04:08:31 -0800, "Bev" wrote: Hello, As some of you know most of what my daughter and I have been going through I want to share in hopes someone can enlighten me. It has been just about 8 months now since she and the father of her baby split up. I knew it was gonna be difficult for her to adjust and accept this. Back in October she went haywire, calling him saying she didn't want to live , she had even taken a bottle of Advil one night and called who she thought was him , but it was his dad(paternal grandfather) said "I took a bottle of pills goodbye" and hung up the phone. He of course called the house back and woke me up and told me what happened. After that The kids continued to call eachother and harrass eachother and it eventually reached a point where she threatened to take the baby to California and they would never see her.Then they of course went into the emergency custody thing two weeks after she applied for support.Using her mental health and the babies safety as the reason and I really don't blame them for being concerned although I talked often to the paternal grandfather and assured him I would never allow such a thing to happen and I myself would hunt her down should that ever happen. I also told him it was lashing out that she was doing and I felt it was not something she would actually attempt. That said.....we had put into place therapy and a new P-doc to start new meds and try to reel my daughter in. The new doc felt she was not being treated correctly and felt bipolar was not her condition. He feels she is ADHD and severly depressed. Finally a month ago or so she started a new med Strattera for the ADSHD and at first I thought it was a miracle ! Lately, the past 3 days all hell has broke lose once again. She has been avoiding the baby , angry outbursts at me if I question her. Last night we went round and round and once I felt she was o.k. enough and went to bed I went to bed.this morning I woke up to this e-mail from her, I will give a little space before it to warn that the language is not nice. The spelling is due to her learning disabilities. She is 17 yrs. old. I am at a loss . As I read this I couild barely see it through the tears streaming down my face . I just don't know how to help her anymore ? What do you think ? mom you think i want my life this way you think i want to hate waken up in the morning to hate bein here to hate my life i should be happy i should be ok wit this **** hole of a life but im not i cant smile and mean it anymore i cant be happy and at times the only way i am is if im sleepin and not consions to this world jimmys gone out of mylife and out of jaimes and its my falt jaime will have to bounce back and forth wether she lives with me or him and its my falt iv cause this much **** in her life so yeah i have backed off cause god only knows what i will **** up for her next im stuck in this town for the next at least 18years wich i sure as hell dont want she has to go to school with the ****ed up kids in bangor because of me i have to live the rest of my life alone and unhappy because i ****ed up me and jimmy and hes the only one that made me happy hes the one that change my life around and no one will ever do that for me ever again this is my life misareabule and alone because i can never be happy with out him and i wont be and i will have to live with that till i die and only god knows if i will have to even affter that i want to disaper i dont want to be here not like this not always thinkin what is jimmy doin is he happy dose he think of me dose he cry when he dose dose he wish things never went this way dose he love me did he ever love me when i talked to him on the net i asked him if he ever did love me and he said he thought he did but he didn't so two years of my life was a lie and i cant live with that i want him to hurt like he hurt me i want him to cry i want him to feel like his life is over and this is what will distro anything i have worked for my love and my hate for him and what he has done to me what he has done |
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On Tue, 8 Mar 2005 09:27:28 -0500, "Lisa" wrote:
"Bev" wrote in message oups.com... snip the background stuff That said.....we had put into place therapy and a new P-doc to start new meds and try to reel my daughter in. The new doc felt she was not being treated correctly and felt bipolar was not her condition. He feels she is ADHD and severly depressed. Finally a month ago or so she started a new med Strattera for the ADSHD and at first I thought it was a miracle ! Have you done any research on the medication yet? Here's a link that is kind of interesting, and provides many more links in context within the page. http://www.crazymeds.org/strattera.html It is now becoming understood that pretty much the only anti-depressant that is succussful in teens is Prozac. Strattera is new and without long term studies available so who knows. Gotta be a bit careful with sweeping statements like that, Lisa. Paxil and Zoloft were both tried on my teen from 13 to the present. Zoloft wasn't especially useful; Paxil was outstandingly so. It depends on quite a lot of things, including whether there're comorbid conditions, exacerbating factors, etc. etc. In this case, both of those are present. Lately, the past 3 days all hell has broke lose once again. Your daughter's pdoc will need to know this, make an appointment for her to visit ASAP as in RFN. Excellent advice. Wish I'd thought to say that. I was always deeply frustrated by how long it took to get in. Fastest thing was emerg, but that's not the healthiest thing, by a long mile. It takes time and patience for a new med to work, sometimes even as long as 2 months before you can see any benefits. This behaviour could be a side effect from the medication, or, it could be symptomatic and only now manifesting as part of the brain chemicals are being impacted. What if perfectly clear is that for 3 days now your daughter is very ill and needs her doctor. Make the call Bev!! Agreed on all fronts. I do think there's a very real possibility, too, that she's gone off her meds. snipping again for a bit of privacy's sake..... The poor girl, my heart is breaking for her. I'm at my computer Bev, Lisa Me too. ICQ #1235207. If I can be of any help, I'm happy to talk. Cele |
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Hi....I have read your replies Lisa and Cele, thank you both so very much. It has been a terribly tiring day today . I haven't been online since earlier when I made this post. I spent the day running around in a snow storm getting a car on the road for us. Then we had mobil therapy this evening with the behavioral specialist. S was very attentive to talking some of her feelings out and even shared some of her poetry with E (the therapist) We have scheduled an appt. to look at meds again, it did dawn on me that a week ago he did up the dose of Strattera to 50 mg.! Maybe this has been a reason for the sudden turn around. I do give her her meds and watch the swallow, due to so many problems in the past with her compliance and her suicidal actions in the past. I can't leave anything out for fear. I really have to hit the hay ..I work in the a.m. S woke up today pleasant.....later in the afternoon she had a meltdown and cried hysterically for about 5 minutes , I held her and talked her back and the rest of the day has been o.k. I will re read the posts again tomorrow hopefully, there is so much useful advice and my brain is fried right now , need sleep, thanks again, I'll be in touch Bev |
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"Bev" wrote in message ups.com...snip for brevity... Bev, I am so sorry that you all are going through this tough time. Please keep the doc abreast of these outburst. Also, are her hormones back to normal? Please keep us informed. V |
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"Cele" wrote in message ... On Tue, 8 Mar 2005 09:27:28 -0500, "Lisa" wrote: It is now becoming understood that pretty much the only anti-depressant that is succussful in teens is Prozac. Strattera is new and without long term studies available so who knows. Lisa Gotta be a bit careful with sweeping statements like that, Lisa. Paxil and Zoloft were both tried on my teen from 13 to the present. Zoloft wasn't especially useful; Paxil was outstandingly so. It depends on quite a lot of things, including whether there're comorbid conditions, exacerbating factors, etc. etc. In this case, both of those are present. Cele Perhaps what I should have said is safest instead of successful with respect to teens and anti-depressants. I may have sounded like I was making a sweeping statement, however, the statement was drawn from medical warnings issued and reported in the news. Have you read any of it? Lisa |
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"Bev" wrote in message ps.com... Hi....I have read your replies Lisa and Cele, thank you both so very much. hey, no charge Then we had mobil therapy this evening with the behavioral specialist. Talk about good timing! S was very attentive to talking some of her feelings out and even shared some of her poetry with E (the therapist) We have scheduled an appt. to look at meds again, it did dawn on me that a week ago he did up the dose of Strattera to 50 mg.! Keep a close eye on things, every day will be a different day for her. At 17 she is still developing neurologically coupled with medication attempting to chemically compensate so , oy, it's tough on her. Try to be prepared for the next appointment by keeping track of mood swings and meltdowns. Actually, S may even find this helpful in that this will begin to show her that she is stabalizing slowly over time. S woke up today pleasant.....later in the afternoon she had a meltdown and cried hysterically for about 5 minutes , It takes alot more than people really get to make it though the day when you're sick. By the afternoon, she was quite likely tapped and all the excess needed to leak . I held her and talked her back and the rest of the day has been o.k. You sweetheart. That's pretty much the only thing to do when she leaks, and exactly the right thing to do. My husband is pretty good at it too : I will re read the posts again tomorrow hopefully, there is so much useful advice and my brain is fried right now , need sleep, thanks again, I'll be in touch Bev Hope that you were able to get some rest. Put some lavendar essense on your daughter's pillow and see how that helps her, and you for that matter!! Lisa |
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Lisa wrote: "Bev" wrote in message ups.com... snip the background stuff That said.....we had put into place therapy and a new P-doc to start new meds and try to reel my daughter in. The new doc felt she was not being treated correctly and felt bipolar was not her condition. He feels she is ADHD and severly depressed. Finally a month ago or so she started a new med Strattera for the ADSHD and at first I thought it was a miracle ! Have you done any research on the medication yet? Here's a link that is kind of interesting, and provides many more links in context within the page. http://www.crazymeds.org/strattera.html I checked this site out.....interesting especially since the author is actually using Strattera and other meds as well , who would know better ! It is now becoming understood that pretty much the only anti-depressant that is succussful in teens is Prozac. Strattera is new and without long term studies available so who knows. Yeah I heard from another "friend of a friend" that her cousin was put on Strattera and was having violent outbursts. Lately, the past 3 days all hell has broke lose once again. Your daughter's pdoc will need to know this, make an appointment for her to visit ASAP as in RFN. It takes time and patience for a new med to work, sometimes even as long as 2 months before you can see any benefits. This behaviour could be a side effect from the medication, or, it could be symptomatic and only now manifesting as part of the brain chemicals are being impacted. What if perfectly clear is that for 3 days now your daughter is very ill and needs her doctor. Make the call Bev!! Call was made RFN! The doc did see us and we discussed what was going on and even more came out than I knew. Apparently it makes my daughter absolutely angry to no end that the babies father does not spend time with her on his Days he has her. I as well as the doctor expressed to her that for the babies sake she needs to find a place for those feelings that are safe. He will see what his current behavior does in time. I hope he can see sooner than later that this baby needs his time above all else. I also said to her it was very important that if he is not spending the time how important her time spent with the baby is to the child. We agreed to give the meds some more time and if things are not improving to call him, otherwise, our next visit is scheduled for the end of March. snipping again for a bit of privacy's sake..... The poor girl, my heart is breaking for her. I'm at my computer Bev, Lisa Thanks Lisa...I hit and ran with this post .....finding time to respond is difficult at times...I manage to read more than respond probably because I can read oh so much faster than I can hunt and peck these keys LOL! I do benefit greatly from the advice I read ! S has been much better since the talk therapy from the therapist , P-doc and myself fingers crossed Bev |
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Cele, Sorry late in responding. S is doing better after a bit of
intervention. She takes those meds for sure, I have to hand feed them at this point. One of these days I'll venture into to figuring out ICQ, in the meantime I am clueless LOL! Bev P.S. I also need to remember to educate myself a bit more on using google, I think I should of copied the post I responded to before I typed this and now I will just send this one cause going back to fix this one will be a disaster |
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