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Life changes due to pregnancy (emotional, past loss ment)
The last day of school was yesterday-and I'm hitting major depression. I've wanted this baby for a long time, and I've known since Brian was born that when I next got pregnant, I would be leaving teaching pretty soon after the pregnancy was confirmed, rather than waiting until the baby was born. But this morning, when I woke up and realized that until December, when "Cuddles" decides to make his/her appearance (and I certainly hope he/she WAITS until December!) I literally have NOTHING to do. For the last 10 years, my life has either been teaching, or preparing to teach over breaks. Because of the pregnancy, the only dates on my calendar for this summer (except for my birthday-which is an issue in itself, since I'm definitely aware that I'm hoping to be bringing home a first baby after just about everyone I know has decided they're done having them) are doctor's appointments, phone calls to the midwife, and perinatologist appointments. No travel, no graduate classes, nothing. Even for the last month, the only thing I've really heard from anyone is questions about the pregnancy. Most of the people I'm friends with locally are other teachers-and while I may have more in common with some after the baby comes, again, everyone I know either has quite a bit older children, or is single and not really planning to have any. A lot of people don't completely approve of my being pregnant again regardless. I've also got friends in support groups, but I can hardly complain to women who have been struggling to get pregnant or who have gone through repeated losses that I'm upset about not being able to work while pregnant, can I?? I don't want to do too much with the nursery and getting things ready-and have told everyone no showers or baby-related gifts until at least November 1st, because I'm so aware that for me pregnancy does not always equal a baby. I started cleaning out the closet in the middle bedroom (which has had my teaching and craft stuff stored in it, but will be needed for the nursery), and just couldn't do it. I've always planned to be a SAH mom after I had a baby-and I suspect that if I was leaving work at 8 1/2 months pregnant, things would be different. But right now, I'm 8 weeks and this baby isn't even due until after 1st semester of next year ends. And right now, I feel good and the pregnancy is going beautifully. But, I know that if I work (or even if I do too much at home) and if anything goes wrong, I'll blame myself for it. Is it normal to feel this upset about life changes? And to be wondering right now if maybe I would have been better off adopting another kitten instead of trying so hard to get pregnant again?? -- Donna DeVore Metler Orff Music, band, and choir, Lester Focused Literacy School Mother to Angel Brian Anthony Metler, 1/1/02, (22 weeks, severe PE/HELLP syndrome) And "Cuddles"-EDD 12/29/04 |
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