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my mums cancer
Hi everybody
Kate, I hope the wedding went well, I've not been keeping up to date, so excuse me. I've been sorting out some old family photos, getting a family tree together for the kids. My mom just phoned me to say that shes going into hospital at the earliest the surgeon can drag her into theatre, and that she's dying of cancer and theres not a lot they can do for her now. Other things seem to be bustling along now the children are back at school. The dream date wasnt a dream, very sweet natured guy but still close enough to his ex wife for her to call him up 3 times every day. They sure lived in different places but surely they never divorced at heart! Ah well, just as long as everyone was happy who the hell cares. I joined a dating agency, was contacted, got chatty and recieved a nasty explicit e-mail whoops I wasn't expecting that. I didn't warrant it. I'm still feeling kinda shocked. On reflection he was honest, and it would have been hell to become involved only to have then realized what he was upto. Be warned. On a side note I heard from an aquaintance that when an old friend divorced, she discovered child porn on the family pc. She was horrified, heartbroken, and still doesn't know if her ex downloaded it deliberately to cause her every anxiety known to a parent. A's house has been full of lost souls again, this time it was his best friend who had been thrown out by his wife/girlfriend after 16 years and 2 children. He has been having an affair with another friends wife (married 5 years also with 2 children) This might have been forgiven except that the woman has already had 3 affairs in 5 years of marriage and an abortion because of one of them. I half expected her to turn up on A's doorstep instead... Why some birds do **** in their own nests is beyond me. Why disrupt the emotional stability of 4 little ones? A. has shown more interest in us, he seems to be more affectionate of recent. He says that there was a study done that men are more likely to father a child with disabilities as he gets older. _______________ I'm howling the house down here. Its so unlike me, the children have been in to ask whats wrong, I've told them grandma's poorly. I don't know what to tell them. I feel so lonesome, the bluff won't work today of all days, theres no other adult around. Not another relative to contact and A's working. just wanna sob and sob, isnt it typical, lifes heartbreaks dam up, and just one thing brings down the whole wall, its not just my mom, its like every other upset I've had seems to be coming back along with it. I want to stay with her the weekend, maybe take the children. Shes really interested in the family tree stuff and what I found cheered her up. Grief |
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I'm so sorry that you're going through all of this, Miri - and there aren't
even any words to help make it better. Have time with your mom, while you can - and take a tape recorder, let her talk about anything and everything.... you, and the children will have those stories to keep... |
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"miri" wrote in message oups.com... Hi everybody Kate, I hope the wedding went well, I've not been keeping up to date, so excuse me. I've been sorting out some old family photos, getting a family tree together for the kids. My mom just phoned me to say that shes going into hospital at the earliest the surgeon can drag her into theatre, and that she's dying of cancer and theres not a lot they can do for her now. Other things seem to be bustling along now the children are back at school. The dream date wasnt a dream, very sweet natured guy but still close enough to his ex wife for her to call him up 3 times every day. They sure lived in different places but surely they never divorced at heart! Ah well, just as long as everyone was happy who the hell cares. I joined a dating agency, was contacted, got chatty and recieved a nasty explicit e-mail whoops I wasn't expecting that. I didn't warrant it. I'm still feeling kinda shocked. On reflection he was honest, and it would have been hell to become involved only to have then realized what he was upto. Be warned. On a side note I heard from an aquaintance that when an old friend divorced, she discovered child porn on the family pc. She was horrified, heartbroken, and still doesn't know if her ex downloaded it deliberately to cause her every anxiety known to a parent. A's house has been full of lost souls again, this time it was his best friend who had been thrown out by his wife/girlfriend after 16 years and 2 children. He has been having an affair with another friends wife (married 5 years also with 2 children) This might have been forgiven except that the woman has already had 3 affairs in 5 years of marriage and an abortion because of one of them. I half expected her to turn up on A's doorstep instead... Why some birds do **** in their own nests is beyond me. Why disrupt the emotional stability of 4 little ones? A. has shown more interest in us, he seems to be more affectionate of recent. He says that there was a study done that men are more likely to father a child with disabilities as he gets older. _______________ I'm howling the house down here. Its so unlike me, the children have been in to ask whats wrong, I've told them grandma's poorly. I don't know what to tell them. I feel so lonesome, the bluff won't work today of all days, theres no other adult around. Not another relative to contact and A's working. just wanna sob and sob, isnt it typical, lifes heartbreaks dam up, and just one thing brings down the whole wall, its not just my mom, its like every other upset I've had seems to be coming back along with it. I want to stay with her the weekend, maybe take the children. Shes really interested in the family tree stuff and what I found cheered her up. Grief Yikes! You have a LOT on your plate right now, and I can only imagine how hard that is. Spend as much time with your mom as possible. In the end, you'll have those good memories to hold on to. You might even find days are slightly easier to live if you have that time and also the good feelings. Such a crappy situation ((hugs to you)) |
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Thank you but I don't think I could tape her, its too upsetting,
we didnt get along and it wouldnt sound right - my experience of her is mostly of the moaning, critical, self opiniated and the downright agressivness of herself. We always knew she was ill when she stopped feeling grumpy. She reads a lot and really became excentric. Shes quite a good actress too, I think she liked 40's & Bette Davies movies. We have a similar sense of humour which always brought us together, maybe the only thing. I mean she's been repeating "when I die I'll haunt you" for around 25 years. I just want her to be happy when she does...you get the picture? Maybe a short film would be better? She is very frail, the surgeon warned her that she may not survive surgery.....it just hit me so hard, she may not be there next Wednesday, not there, empty, and there won't be any more moaning - no more non stop chat, no more slamming the phone on me when I say I have problems too. God, I'm going to miss the ol' cow. There won't be any more interference in my private life, no one to ask me how my diseases by proxy are, no one to chat up my friends and neighbours an stir up trouble with. When my sister in law asked her what she'd be wearing at the wedding that she'd color coordinated the bridesmaids, mom politely replied that she'd found something black at the local charity auction. Before I die it'll be nice to think of those people I loved and if they're there waiting for me. If I've become an atheist by then it'd be nice to know the people who I love are alive and thriving. Mom is so Victorian in a way the same morbidity they seemed to have had, but she wasnt religious, there wasnt a time and place for it, her feelings of loss would become dramas, a real catharsis. I don't want to be like that, I'd sooner cry all over a cassock and get home in time for beef stew with dumplings an the soap opera. 'Kate wrote: On 13 Sep 2006 12:36:13 -0700, "miri" the following was posted in blue dry erase marker: Hi everybody Kate, I hope the wedding went well, I've not been keeping up to date, so excuse me. You're just in time. It's Friday. We're running ragged getting everything ready. I'm delighted! I bet you're the best mum in the world, I read the posts here and writers are so good with their children, its a real education and one thats priceless, I've been sorting out some old family photos, getting a family tree together for the kids. My mom just phoned me to say that shes going into hospital at the earliest the surgeon can drag her into theatre, and that she's dying of cancer and theres not a lot they can do for her now. I hope they find something for her or, if not, that she is pain free throughout whatever trial she is facing. My mom died three years ago from cancer. I know a little of that road. Daddy died when I was 13, it was a short illness and he didnt complain. I held his hand as he died. There wasnt anyone in the house with me. He struggled a little and slipped away on my arm, there wasnt a moment I thought he was dead, just a suprise that he wasnt in his body somehow, weird, but it was like a shell or husk there but not my dad. Other things seem to be bustling along now the children are back at school. That's always a relief. A person can get so much done in six hours. yup, and our kitties have fleas, so I've got to do that tomorrow. The dream date wasnt a dream, very sweet natured guy but still close enough to his ex wife for her to call him up 3 times every day. They sure lived in different places but surely they never divorced at heart! Ah well, just as long as everyone was happy who the hell cares. It's a shame he's allowing that. Maybe he's the kind of person who's helpful to a fault... not a bad kind of guy. I can't really object, his kids were fabulous and A and I still get along. I can't expect anyone to be 'one and only', I mean, I'm not willing to give my children up or the friendship I have because of romance. I joined a dating agency, was contacted, got chatty and recieved a nasty explicit e-mail whoops I wasn't expecting that. I didn't warrant it. I'm still feeling kinda shocked. On reflection he was honest, and it would have been hell to become involved only to have then realized what he was upto. Be warned. ewwww I'll second that On a side note I heard from an aquaintance that when an old friend divorced, she discovered child porn on the family pc. She was horrified, heartbroken, and still doesn't know if her ex downloaded it deliberately to cause her every anxiety known to a parent. I suppose she could have the time/day traced on it to see who could have possibly done that. Or just confront him with knowing the time/date, even if she doesn't, and see if he fesses up. I've got to say I don't know the details, and I'm not going to ask about, from what I recall shes a mature lady and emotionally adult. I think she'll have done what should could. A's house has been full of lost souls again, this time it was his best friend who had been thrown out by his wife/girlfriend after 16 years and 2 children. He has been having an affair with another friends wife (married 5 years also with 2 children) This might have been forgiven except that the woman has already had 3 affairs in 5 years of marriage and an abortion because of one of them. I half expected her to turn up on A's doorstep instead... Why some birds do **** in their own nests is beyond me. Why disrupt the emotional stability of 4 little ones? tsk tsk. Shame on them. better than a soap I'm greatly pleased he wanted me out of his social network now, and hes told me to pretend I don't know anything about it! He would have made a fine politician! A. has shown more interest in us, he seems to be more affectionate of recent. He says that there was a study done that men are more likely to father a child with disabilities as he gets older. Yep. Women too as we get older. It's good that he's interested in finding out more. _______________ I'm howling the house down here. Its so unlike me, the children have been in to ask whats wrong, I've told them grandma's poorly. I don't know what to tell them. I feel so lonesome, the bluff won't work today of all days, theres no other adult around. Not another relative to contact and A's working. It's ok to cry in front of the kids. You can tell them just what you did and that she is not going to be able to live much longer because the doctors can't fix her. It'll help them to prepare. Of course, they'll also ask you lots of questions. There are hospital and hospice groups that help children through this... kids only groups too. just wanna sob and sob, isnt it typical, lifes heartbreaks dam up, and just one thing brings down the whole wall, its not just my mom, its like every other upset I've had seems to be coming back along with it. Overwhelmed... of course you are! Poor kid. A good cry is healthy. You really should do it. Tell the kids you need a few minutes for a good cry and that when you stop, in a little bit, you'll feel better and you'll come back out... that you'll be ok. It's ok to cry. Great stress relief. Good for them to know too and be ok with it. They need to learn it ends for you too and things will be ok again. I want to stay with her the weekend, maybe take the children. Shes really interested in the family tree stuff and what I found cheered her up. That was such a lovely thought - the family tree. 'Kate I think the big problem is that I'll get depressed and it may affect my usual relationship with the kids, I'm going to have to off load somehow, and I don't want the children in the situation where I'm disturbing them unnecessarily. I know we're going to cry, its natural, we grieve, but without another family member for share and support I'm scared. My babysitter is a wonderful woman, she's like extended family to the kids, I know she'll look out for them if I need a break. We've all known her since the little one was first born. lov Miri |
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