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so, WHY am i doing this again?
I'm glad things are going better for you. You can do it. It's a
learning process. Maybe you should read the little engine that could to DD#1 a few times to help motivate you . Best of luck. LB shelley wrote: shelley sez: "THANK YOU for your replys and personal stories. It has helped so very VERY much." things are better already.... i got some sleep (turns out it wasn't so bad having the bed to just me and baby) and some food and a clearer sense of reality. the 2 yr old is off playing with daddy today (he took a day off work, bless his heart) and i finally got some clothes washed. so life is looking a little better. and because some of you asked.... here's the history, if you're interested... with dd#1 i "attempted" to bf for about 3 months. it was absolutely HORRIBLE. i didn't know before, but my nipples are "flat" and the shells didn't help. neither did the nipple shield or the breast pump. Sore, cracked and bleeding, my supply fell off, i developed mastitis which errupted into an abcess which ended my motivation. I cried when i had to buy formula. I hid for a month when i had to bottle feed in public, too embarrased by this failure. so, with dd#2, i wore the shells in the months before her birth and was confident it would be "easy" this time. HA. DD#2 loves to suck, and she was so hungry for the first week, i swear she was chewing on me every half hour. Of course there just wasn't much there yet and by the time my milk came in i was (again) sore, cracked, bleeding and crying in pain every time she "latched" (we made a lot of mistakes). At someone's suggestion, we rented a pump and expressed milk to feed her so that i could heal. A week later, guess what? nipple confusion. She slurps so contentedly at that *&^%$! bottle and flails around in frustration at breast. And we are still working on getting the "perfect" latch... so still sore, still inefficient, still "giving in" to the easy bottle at 3am. BUT, i am going to hang in there at least another week. she's already better at opening WIDE and maybe it was a dream, or maybe i was groggy last night, but i thought she made a "ooh,-that's-icky-face" when presented with the bottle. And at least she's still getting breastmilk. And she's gaining weight. and she sleeps. Things could be worse! |
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so, WHY am i doing this again?
shelley wrote:
my daughter is three weeks old today and we still haven't gotten this natural art of breastfeeding right yet. I'm sore and leaking like crazy and tired and cranky and nothing has ever made me feel so inadequate and guilty for failing... My husband is sleeping on the couch, my two year old is jealous and needy... where's the love? where's the bonding at two in the morning when the baby is screaming and arching her back away from the breast? I've seen three lactation consultants and one LaLeched League leader... nothing seems to be changing, except my mood which is gloomier.... so WHY am i doing this? what kept you going? this time, the only thing that kept me going was knowing i had done it before (albeit 15.5 and 18 years ago...) and that it could get easier; also laziness - i didn't want to deal with ff'ing. my first 2 times i couldn't afford to ff. but, mostly just lazy and now i hate to think of paying for formula... -- Edith oht nak |
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so, WHY am i doing this again?
shelley wrote:
my daughter is three weeks old today and we still haven't gotten this natural art of breastfeeding right yet. I'm sore and leaking like crazy and tired and cranky and nothing has ever made me feel so inadequate and guilty for failing... My husband is sleeping on the couch, my two year old is jealous and needy... where's the love? where's the bonding at two in the morning when the baby is screaming and arching her back away from the breast? I've seen three lactation consultants and one LaLeched League leader... nothing seems to be changing, except my mood which is gloomier.... so WHY am i doing this? what kept you going? I'm way to lazy to deal with bottles and way to forgetful to be able to remember to bring enough formula for our errands and, worse, for our vacations. BF'ing may be a pain sometimes (and it still is sometimes for me) but it's so much easier and more convenient than ff'ing that I can't imagine switching. Each time I think about quitting, I remember how much MORE work it would be to ff DD and that keeps me going. In the beginning, with cracked, bleeding nipples, lots of pain and mastitis, I kept it up because I was assured that it would get easier and I knew that it was what was best for my baby. It does get easier. Go one feeding at a time, one day at a time. Don't look ahead to six months or a year but to tomorrow. As in, "I can do this today, and tomorrow we'll see." Good luck and I hope it gets easier for you soon. Oh, one other thing. Several women I know had better luck when they saw the same LC a number of times rather than several different LC's. -- Melissa (in Los Angeles) Mum to Elizabeth 4/13/03 |
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so, WHY am i doing this again?
"Melissa" wrote in message news:FoXdb.631182$Ho3.121539@sccrnsc03... shelley wrote: my daughter is three weeks old today and we still haven't gotten this natural art of breastfeeding right yet. I'm sore and leaking like crazy and tired and cranky and nothing has ever made me feel so inadequate and guilty for failing... My husband is sleeping on the couch, my two year old is jealous and needy... where's the love? where's the bonding at two in the morning when the baby is screaming and arching her back away from the breast? I've seen three lactation consultants and one LaLeched League leader... nothing seems to be changing, except my mood which is gloomier.... so WHY am i doing this? what kept you going? I'm way to lazy to deal with bottles and way to forgetful to be able to remember to bring enough formula for our errands and, worse, for our vacations. BF'ing may be a pain sometimes (and it still is sometimes for me) but it's so much easier and more convenient than ff'ing that I can't imagine switching. Each time I think about quitting, I remember how much MORE work it would be to ff DD and that keeps me going. In the beginning, with cracked, bleeding nipples, lots of pain and mastitis, I kept it up because I was assured that it would get easier and I knew that it was what was best for my baby. Yes. I agree with this. I'm feeding my 3rd nursling, and we had a hellacious first six weeks. I had bloody, cracked, sore nipples and a baby who, though perfectly happy to latch, was *killing* my nipples. If I hadn't KNOWN I could make it work, because I'd done it before, I'd have had a harder time continuing. But I *knew* it would get better. And it did. I can tell you that I didn't really start enjoying feeding this baby until she learned to smile...about a week ago. Before that I had no feedback, just a poker-face kiddo who wouldn't even look at me. She's a lot more fun now. I get that ache in my chest, you know the "love" sensation, when she smiles. But I didn't have it before. I just slogged on. And it got better. Breastfeeding is instinctive, but it's also *learned*. Babies are born knowing they have to suck. That doesn't tell them how to do it properly. That's something they have to learn. It helped me a great deal with my pain when I finally learned how to do an asymetric latch, with the nipple off-center in baby's mouth - much more of the aureola on the lower-lip side of the nipple in her mouth, and very little of the aureola on the upper-lip side. Pain eased off in one nipple immediately when I learned how to do that; the other nipple was injured so it took longer to heal and for the pain to go away (35 days, but who's counting?). If you haven't tried swaddling your baby until she just can't move, and *then* trying to nurse her, you might try it. My daughter was doing the arch-and-scream thing, and I think what was really bothering her was those annoying arms and legs moving around. She just wanted to be able to stop moving, and focus on her mouth. I also kept my hand away from the back of her head, which is apparently a trigger point for rooting (will make baby keep trying to find the nipple, which she thinks is behind her because that's where her head is being touched). A hand on the back of her neck, or on her upper back, is adequate for pulling baby in close to the breast when she opens her mouth, especially if she's swaddled up tight into a single 'unit' of baby. My kids have been jealous of the baby too - though mine are older (6, 4 and 4) but I can read books to them while nursing, which helps the jealousy thing. When my eldest was 2 and her twin sisters were born, I tandem-nursed her with them. There was no jealousy. But if you're not tandem nursing...maybe you can cuddle your eldest with one arm, while nursing baby in the clutch/football hold on the other side? I can't help with the husband-on-the-couch thing. We put a night light in our room so I could get up at night without turning on the big light (we have a big recliner-rocker I nurse in) and my husband frankly sleeps through anything, But there may be things he can do, like wear earplugs...? We'll try to help you come up with ways to improve your experience. Please, let us help? --angela |
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