Sad about the way weaning is happening

I imagine its no picnic ... but you still seem ... umm ... "brighter" than
the last time I heard from you.
I actually have made several good friends from playgroup and from the
kindy
K goes to. Mind you, there are quite a few who I'll never have anything
in
common with. Perhaps your horizons will seem bigger in Wellington... (and
with some support with your sister there). I guess its a difficult
decision
to make.

Thanks, it's good to have an outside perspective I AM an optimist - if I
wasn't I can quite honestly say, with my depression, that I probably
wouldn't be here. I completed another element of the main unit standard
today - yay! I'm trying hard not to see this year as a failure. Finally, at
25, I more or less know what I want to do with my life, and I've taken some
steps to get there, so that's a good thing.
I think a lot of the loneliness of living here stems from being single. If I
had a full time job and partner, I'd be content to have a few casual
acquaintances and probably wouldn't have much time for anything else.

...and yes - they are a practical bunch of boys, but I also think a bit
of
talking wouldn't go astray either.

Heh, if you figure that one out, let the rest of woman-kind in on the secret
;-)

One of the things I find the hardest to deal with is the kids.
Unfortunately, it was a graveside service and while DD understands what
happened, DS (just turned 3) thinks that G'dad is only dead because we put
him in a hole. He quite regularly tells us that's he's going to get a
rope
and rescue G'dad

Geez, now that IS tough! Have you tried the library? I've heard there are a
lot of good books on death & dying these days specifically written for
preschoolers and young school-age children. Ana's the same age and we just
lost the rabbit we've had her whole life, and I found myself at a loss for
the right words. 'Asha's gone to heaven' was the first thing that sprang to
mind, but it doesn't sit right for me as I'm not Christian and I don't
believe in the typical heaven concept. In the end we settled for 'died' and
I decided to save the theology discussion for later.
I don't know what I'd do in that situation. Probably go on Wikipedia and
find articles relating to death and decomposition, followed by a discussion
on the concept of a soul, but yeah... that's probably not appropriate, I'm
weird like that :-O

Amy