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"CME" wrote in message news:FdPlc.257$uN4.143@clgrps12... "Tiffany" wrote in message ... I never thought I would be so happy to be home. We made it through the wake and funeral. As soon as we walked into the funeral home, Sage was greeted with love and tears. She was able to grieve and cry and get hugs and cry. Then this morning, it was all over again. I will never understand all the ceremonial stuff that Catholics do. No offense intended. It was to much though. I was so appreciative of all the love that is given to S and me. Her especially. I couldn't tell the family enough how much thanks they deserve for loving her and excepting her. She was able to speak with D, who is her father's girlfriend and current carrier of the soon to be half-brother/sister. Me and her also had the chance to talk about her continue contact with S that I said is great and some other personal things. Sage was great though. I think she handled herself very well. I had to back off at times, many times actually, and let them be there for her. I felt sort of like I didn't belong at times but just chocked it down and sat and waited for her to need me. I never sat doing nothing for so long in my life. I think S has gotten a positive view on her father and why he wasn't around much from his girlfriend. I don't agree with most of what she told S, I still believe if he wanted to be a Daddy he would have. Excuses are crap and he has tons of them. In my head I was screaming..... HE WASN'T A GOOD FATHER.... HE WAS NOOOO FATHER but what good would it do, except for me to vent. While at the wake, as I was sitting, I was thinking..... Why am I not crying like everyone else? I must be heartless. I can't get over the wrongs. I want to punch him in the head and ask him how the hell he can do this to S and now I really do have to be a single mom. After all the crap, he is going to cut out in death. F------ loser. This morning though, it got the best of me and I cried with S and his mother. I adore his mother, I think of her as my second mom and she thinks of me as a daughter. Her grief saddened me, S's grief saddened me.... I don't think I was crying for her father though. I guess my feelings might change, probably not though. I will vent where appropriate and keep the positive attitude with my daughter. Thanks again everyone. I will continue to re-read posts that will help later in dealing with S as she grieves. Don't sweat the arguing..... those who know me know if I had the energy, I would be arguing too. Hugs to all! Tiffany I'm so sorry you've both had to go through this Tiff. I have so many thoughts and feelings on this issue that I can't even put them into words really. I look at the situation with my children and it's quite different from yours, but I'm struck with the thought that it's a bitter end, but at least there is no more wondering, waiting, and wishing. I wonder at times if my boys are hurt that they don't know their father, and they'll grow up with what ifs. This might sound cold, and will probably come out wrong, but at least with death, there is no more guessing. It's so unfortunate though, that he wasn't a 'good' father because this doesn't apply to those fathers that were/are there for their children, but to the ones that should have been something while they were alive. Christine |
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"CME" wrote in message news:FdPlc.257$uN4.143@clgrps12... "Tiffany" wrote in message ... I never thought I would be so happy to be home. We made it through the wake and funeral. As soon as we walked into the funeral home, Sage was greeted with love and tears. She was able to grieve and cry and get hugs and cry. Then this morning, it was all over again. I will never understand all the ceremonial stuff that Catholics do. No offense intended. It was to much though. I was so appreciative of all the love that is given to S and me. Her especially. I couldn't tell the family enough how much thanks they deserve for loving her and excepting her. She was able to speak with D, who is her father's girlfriend and current carrier of the soon to be half-brother/sister. Me and her also had the chance to talk about her continue contact with S that I said is great and some other personal things. Sage was great though. I think she handled herself very well. I had to back off at times, many times actually, and let them be there for her. I felt sort of like I didn't belong at times but just chocked it down and sat and waited for her to need me. I never sat doing nothing for so long in my life. I think S has gotten a positive view on her father and why he wasn't around much from his girlfriend. I don't agree with most of what she told S, I still believe if he wanted to be a Daddy he would have. Excuses are crap and he has tons of them. In my head I was screaming..... HE WASN'T A GOOD FATHER.... HE WAS NOOOO FATHER but what good would it do, except for me to vent. While at the wake, as I was sitting, I was thinking..... Why am I not crying like everyone else? I must be heartless. I can't get over the wrongs. I want to punch him in the head and ask him how the hell he can do this to S and now I really do have to be a single mom. After all the crap, he is going to cut out in death. F------ loser. This morning though, it got the best of me and I cried with S and his mother. I adore his mother, I think of her as my second mom and she thinks of me as a daughter. Her grief saddened me, S's grief saddened me.... I don't think I was crying for her father though. I guess my feelings might change, probably not though. I will vent where appropriate and keep the positive attitude with my daughter. Thanks again everyone. I will continue to re-read posts that will help later in dealing with S as she grieves. Don't sweat the arguing..... those who know me know if I had the energy, I would be arguing too. Hugs to all! Tiffany I'm so sorry you've both had to go through this Tiff. I have so many thoughts and feelings on this issue that I can't even put them into words really. I look at the situation with my children and it's quite different from yours, but I'm struck with the thought that it's a bitter end, but at least there is no more wondering, waiting, and wishing. I wonder at times if my boys are hurt that they don't know their father, and they'll grow up with what ifs. This might sound cold, and will probably come out wrong, but at least with death, there is no more guessing. It's so unfortunate though, that he wasn't a 'good' father because this doesn't apply to those fathers that were/are there for their children, but to the ones that should have been something while they were alive. Christine Damn, I hit the send button and sent a reply that I didn't answer. Oops. I think the timing is perfect. He made recent contact with her, claimed to be doing good and working on getting into college, ect. So she is left with that as the final act. His final act was he was talking to her, getting his **** together. That is all she needs to know. That will make a world of difference in the years to come. Its crazy that his girlfriend is pregnant though. S is kinda excited about it and I am like whatever. I told her its not because its his baby, I am just not a 'get excited about babies' person. lol You worry about sounding cold when I wanted to punch a corpse? lol T |
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On Tue, 4 May 2004 22:51:08 -0400, "Tiffany"
wrote: More bad news today..... my Grandfather had a stroke. Doesn't look like a real bad one though. I will find out more tomorrow. I'm sorry, Tiffany. I hope he's ok. lm |
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