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How could anyone hurt a baby ?
I look at my son, I kiss him, I stroke his thin head of hair, I
zerbert his feet/belly... I love him affectionately and infinitely. And though I have gotten stressed at times as this is all new for the DW and I, I could never see hurting him or worse.. dumping him in the garbage or putting him in a microwave. It's bad enough the world we live in and having to worry for the rest of my life hoping my son will get to live a full life because you never know (drunk driver, maniac with a gun, war, accident, etc.) *knock on wood*. And I am sure I can't understand the stress/duress of being a single mom, having no support, working 2 jobs, etc... I can sympathise with those who have a tough life. But to actually cause harm to such an innocent and helpless child that simply wants to be loved and to eat and sleep and play and all that... I don't understand it and don't sympathise with those that harm their children at all. I look at my son and i feel so lucky that he's comes this far over the past 9 months and to think he's got a LIFETIME ahead of him really puts things in perspective and makes you a little paranoid more-so about the everyday goings on in this crazy world. I don't know, I just need to say this. Paul |
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How could anyone hurt a baby ?
Snugglemonster wrote:
I look at my son, I kiss him, I stroke his thin head of hair, I zerbert his feet/belly... I love him affectionately and infinitely. And though I have gotten stressed at times as this is all new for the DW and I, I could never see hurting him or worse.. dumping him in the garbage or putting him in a microwave. snip When I had my son, nearly 7 years ago, I felt incredibly overwhelmed. He screamed a lot. Actually, he pretty much screamed any time he wasn't latched on. I didn't get much sleep in the first months. I didn't get time alone. I was always holding a baby, pushing a baby in the stroller, nursind nursing nursing. I can understand how someone can be so overwhelmed, so stressed, so hopeless and so incredibly tired that they think "I just want this baby to stop screaming". I will never ever call it ok though. I tried to make an appointment at the local clinic to get him evaluated as a "Schreibaby" (scream baby) and they sent me a form I needed to fill out and I was supposed to send the filled out form back and then wait for them to contact me about an appointment. I couldn't even find the time to fill out the form. I started seeing a therapist when Sam was 2 or 3 months old and he was awesome. I wasn't suffering from depression (family history of that), I was just an overwhelmed new mother in a horrible, and finally abusive relationship. When I think back to the first months with Sam I can't remember much. I look at the photos and think "Wow, I look so tired". Most days I didn't even get a shower. Or breakfast. Or lunch. Or time to go to the toilett. For me it was horrible to hear him scream, I just couldn't leave him alone when he was screaming, but have you ever tried to go to the bathroom with a 2 month old in your lap? Some babies are wonderfully quiet, only fuss when hungry or tired. Other babies scream. For no apparent reason. Sam would scream when he was dry, full, burped, everything. I moved out when Sam was 6 months old. When he was about 8 months old I was living close to my parents and I remember calling them late one evening and the only thing I was able to say was "Come and pick him up or something horrible will happen. He's been screaming all day long." I had tried everything, I had even called the pediatrician. He didn't want to eat, he didn't want to nurse, he didn't want to play, sleep, cuddle, his diapers were dry... My dad was at my place in 10 minutes (usually a 15 minute drive), picked Sam up and told me he'd call me in the morning, to get some rest and just chill. My mother still says: "Nicole, some children scream for a few days. Some for a few weeks or months. You screamed for years." so apparently it's in the genes ;-) A very few times I was so close to calling child services and asking them for help. I thought about giving him up for adoption or placing him in temporary foster care. But he's my son. I love him. There's nothing that can come between us. But those first years were tough. And I'm so hoping that nr2 will be different than her brother. Because this time around my parents don't live close by, there's only my brother and I don't think he'll cherish taking care of the baby and Sam while I bury my head under a heap of pillows ;-) I don't know what would have happened if I hadn't learned to find help when I need it, and that it's ok to call a friend/family member in the middle of the night because you just can't deal with it all anymore and you just need some sane person at the other end of the phone to tell you that it's not going to be like this for ever. But I'm glad I had/have those great friends who I can call at 3 a.m. crying and shrieking and who'll do their best to calm me down. (Which usually takes about 5 minutes...) take care nicole |
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I think it's probably some sort of disorder, because you're right, why would
anyone normal harm a baby - even when things are really bad, the furthest most people go is thinking about harming them, and even that's pretty extreme, I had very severe postnatal depression after my first (though surprisingly, absolutely nothing after my 2nd) and I do recall thinking about harming him, but it was only a very small number of times. As a child grows, they are much more able to make you angry, but that doesn't necessarily result in feelings of wanting to harm them, more wanting to control them! Even so, I'm sure I read somewhere that the vast majority of child abuse cases to not relate to anything the child has done, so whilst anger isn't an excuse, it rarely seems to be a cause of ongoing abuse anyway. Cheers Anne |
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My son had colic. Yours is only 3 weeks old now, so not quite due for it
yet, if he gets it at all. Mine, at 6 weeks, turned from a lovely cooing blue eyed wonder child into a wailing screaming banshee for several hours every night for 2 months running. It was a nightmare. We ate dinner in shifts as the only thing that would calm him was stomach massage and looking at the fish tank. We set up a chair facing the tank and a change mat on the floor so that one or the other of us could sit with him looking at the fish or massage his tummy while the other one took a break, ate, whatever. I remember thinking "I wish you'd just shut up for a little while so I can get my head straight". The almost constant high pitched wail eventually gets to you. For me, it was just thoughts. Other people cannot cope and actually physically try to shut the baby's mouth, smothering them in the process. And they say "I just wanted him/her to be quiet, I couldn't take the screaming any more". Sad, but true. Then when he was 6 months old he got night terrors and reverse cycled. At the same time. I was a walking zombie. At one stage I didn't sleep for over 72 hours straight. He was awake almost constantly during the day and night. He'd go down for maybe 45 minutes max at a stretch, then be awake for hours on end, then another 45 minutes, screaming when the night terrors had him. I was afraid to go to bed because there was no way for me to sleep. He'd be up before I relaxed enough to fall asleep. I was constantly on edge, constantly awake, waiting for that cry to sound... Another nightmare time. And I couldn't get help because the place where you go to deal with babies with sleep problems decided that I was depressed and they wouldn't have me until I was "stable"! How was I supposed to become stable without sleep, with a constantly awake, sometimes screaming baby? So while I don't condone hurting a baby I can understand how people might get to that stage where something inside them might snap, leading to a rash act. As for long-term abuse... That's another thing altogether. That stems from something quite different. As Anne said, those one-off triggers don't start long-term abuse. There's something wrong with the way the person thinks, with the way they justify what they do. There are people out there with totally screwed up thinking patterns but thankfully they are a minority. Engram |
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Snugglemonster wrote:
But to actually cause harm to such an innocent and helpless child that simply wants to be loved and to eat and sleep and play and all that... I don't understand it and don't sympathise with those that harm their children at all. I hear you, Paul. However... Pillbug is the light of my life. I had a very difficult pregnancy and we fought really, really hard to get him here. So, when he was born, DH said that I have never looked more happy. NICU, blah blah blah, we fought to get him home. Home he came. Cut to six weeks later. I'm a zombie from never sleeping more than 1.5 hours at a time. It's 3am, DH has been asleep for several hours, it's my fifth time up nursing and changing Pillbug. I've just changed him, he poops, I have to change him again. He projectile poops ALL OVER THE WALL AND ON THE COMPUTER. In my mind, I was thinking, I could throw him against this wall and no one can do anything about it. Of course, I would never do so. But, it shocked me, and still shocks me to this day, that that kind of thought could go through my head. Before any of my friends had kids, my first friend who had a baby said that she understood Andrea Yates. We were all horrified by her statement. Until I had my own, then I also understood. It is a horror. One would think that, at every step of the way, there are enough checks and balances that should stop a person. Thinking about putting the child in the microwave is one step, actually putting the child in, actually turning it on... There ought to have been some checks on his actions somewhere in his neurons... -- Anita -- |
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"Anne Rogers" wrote in message
. .. I think it's probably some sort of disorder, because you're right, why would anyone normal harm a baby - even when things are really bad, the furthest most people go is thinking about harming them, and even that's pretty extreme, I don't think it is extreme to think of harming your child, especially when they are crying nonstop and there is nothing the parent can do. I know exactly how shaken-baby syndrome can happen. I could never actually hurt one of my kids, but I have definitely been at the point that someone better come and take the baby/child away because I am at the end of my rope. -- Sue |
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How could anyone hurt a baby ?
"Snugglemonster" wrote in message
ups.com... I look at my son, I kiss him, I stroke his thin head of hair, I zerbert his feet/belly... I love him affectionately and infinitely. And though I have gotten stressed at times as this is all new for the DW and I, I could never see hurting him or worse.. dumping him in the garbage or putting him in a microwave. Your still in baby moon (the honeymoon phase). If your baby gets colic like my first baby had, you might not feel so loving ;o). My first daughter started with colic and would cry from 6pm-11pm every night. Most of the time I was alone because my husband worked strange hours at that time. I also remember when my first daughter got a really bad diaper rash that made her bottom raw. It was horrible, again she cried nonstop because it hurt so bad. I was sleep deprived, stressed, and hearing her cry for that many hours wears on a person. I definitely can see how shaken-baby syndrome happens. But, it takes an abnormal chemistry in the brain to be able to actually follow through on that and unfortunately, some people either snap and/or have an imbalance. But to actually cause harm to such an innocent and helpless child that simply wants to be loved and to eat and sleep and play and all that... I don't understand it and don't sympathise with those that harm their children at all. I do symphathize because it is something they will have to live with for the rest of their life, especially if it was a spur-of-the moment bad judgement. I don't have any sympathy for the mothers that have the baby and then put them in the trash because there are so many avenues available to find the child a home rather than have it suffer. -- Sue |
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"Sue" wrote in message news:M6KdneP2o5zMP_vbnZ2dnUVZ_gadnZ2d@wideopenwest .com... "Anne Rogers" wrote in message . .. I think it's probably some sort of disorder, because you're right, why would anyone normal harm a baby - even when things are really bad, the furthest most people go is thinking about harming them, and even that's pretty extreme, I don't think it is extreme to think of harming your child, especially when they are crying nonstop and there is nothing the parent can do. I know exactly how shaken-baby syndrome can happen. I could never actually hurt one of my kids, but I have definitely been at the point that someone better come and take the baby/child away because I am at the end of my rope. -- Sue Sorry for hijacking the thread, but personally I just wanted to thank those that replied. I'm so exhausted lately, but if I lie down, or close my eyes, Jessica (normally so so loving) screams really loudly and smacks me in the face. I've been working overtime, and slowly reaching the end of my tether & abilities. I would *never* harm her, but My God, there are times I've had to leave the room instead. Last night, I had a total breakdown when she started screaming at me (not crying, might I add, just high pitched screams) when I tried to doze in the car on the way home - I'd worked the night shift the night before & took her out all day so that i didnt sleep when i had her here alone. For a moment, I'm sure I actually hated her as she giggled when I burst into tears. I begged Rob to bring her up alone as I felt like the world's worst mother. Thank you to the others for writing their feelings at a time I urgently needed to hear them. I remember the baby-moon days, when I'd have thought anyone else saying this was just pure evil, and I still think that maybe I am. I understand that actual child abuse is different, where the abuser does it for their own enjoyment, but it's only now that I understand how people lose their sanity and harm their child.Believe me though, it breaks my heart to write that. I hope it doesn't happen to you - it's horrible :-( Lucy |
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Lucy-lu wrote:
there are times I've had to leave the room instead. One of the best pieces of advice a friend gave me was, go to the garage where you cannot hear him cry. Just 5 minutes. You can let him cry for 5 minutes. It was a sanity-saver. -- Anita -- |
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"Snugglemonster" wrote in message ups.com... I look at my son, I kiss him, I stroke his thin head of hair, I zerbert his feet/belly... I love him affectionately and infinitely. And though I have gotten stressed at times as this is all new for the DW and I, I could never see hurting him or worse.. dumping him in the garbage or putting him in a microwave. It's bad enough the world we live in and having to worry for the rest of my life hoping my son will get to live a full life because you never know (drunk driver, maniac with a gun, war, accident, etc.) *knock on wood*. And I am sure I can't understand the stress/duress of being a single mom, having no support, working 2 jobs, etc... I can sympathise with those who have a tough life. But to actually cause harm to such an innocent and helpless child that simply wants to be loved and to eat and sleep and play and all that... I don't understand it and don't sympathise with those that harm their children at all. I look at my son and i feel so lucky that he's comes this far over the past 9 months and to think he's got a LIFETIME ahead of him really puts things in perspective and makes you a little paranoid more-so about the everyday goings on in this crazy world. I don't know, I just need to say this. Paul It's surprisingly common to be overwhelmed. It's also not unheardof to "lose it". I do think it's an extreme case (as with dumpsters or microwaves) and I do think that goes a little beyond just being overwhelmed or losing control. The way I see it is this. Sometimes a person just loses it. Loses their temper, mind, whatever. Often, it seems, these people are the general "good" people - caring, loving, would never intentionally hurt anyone or any thing. Lack of sleep, lack of knowledge, stress, pressure, and a number of other factors CAN and DO build up. One case I can recall was about 5 years ago. I never realized how close this hit home until a few years after. My mom had a case in her office of a shaken baby (my mom works for Child Welfare in Child Protection). Dad was your typical "good" dad. He had one infant and also a toddler. At the time, the baby was about 3 months old or so. His babies were his life. He was married, but his wife actually died from complications of a C-section. Baby was born later in December, she died a couple days after Christmas - 2 normally fairly stressful times under normal, good circumstances. Mom dies from a towel being left inside after her C-section with Baby #2. He's now on his own and not by humanly choice, and on his own with a newborn and a toddler. He has the stresses of being a single parent. The stresses of a new baby. Stresses of a toddler, putting food on the table, right after Christmas and his wife has just died (at Christmas time as well) He has limited resources, mainly his MIL. One day, he loses it. He shakes the baby. After I looked into this case on my own, I agree with my mom that I don't believe this man would have ever done this if he didn't have the extra stress of wife dying, and under those circumstances. I also do not justify his actions or think, "Well, it's alright just this one time because he had reason!" because I still do not believe there is any reason or justification. Both baby and toddler get taken away and put into a foster home. Dad goes through different things - counselling, anger management, parenting classes, other random classes, courses and aids. This dad did feel horrible and resented himself for what he did. He took responsibility, saw what he did was lose control to the extreme and went out to seek help. Baby does survive but to this day has lasting effects of this one time. She has some brain damage and does not function. He has to live with that every day of his life. Both girls were brought back home to him, and to this day, he remains to be the otherwise "good" dad. He would never do anything to hurt either of those kids, now about 5 and 7. He did what he had to do to get himself some help and get the education and support he needed. Both girls continue to do just fine, even the youngest that has brain damage because of this. He just lost it. Just lost control. It's not an excuse or anything, it happens. It can happen to good people, it can happen to bad people. Often, IME, this type of situation seems to happen more often to the good people. I can understand, although if it happened to me where it was one of my children, I do not think I could ever forgive or forget - that goes for if it was my mom or dad, brother, aunt or uncle, heck, even DH. I, honestly, do not believe I could forgive that person, and if I was able to, it would be extremely hard. The dad above turned out to be DH's cousin's wife. The man's MIL is my MIL's one and only close sister. When DS was born, I was 16. I was young, had no idea what I was doing or what I was supposed to do. He screamed and screamed and screamed. I even took him to the ped's office to ask what was wrong with this situation - was it me or the baby? I swore up and down that he hated me. I was even calling my mom at 2am to ask her why he hated me and all that. There were times when I had to stop myself and get my control back. Due to my mom's work and what I eventually went to school for, I was able to find that level of control. It was as simple as putting the baby in the crib, closing the door (hm... come to think of it, sometimes I even slammed the door) and walking away and out of earshot of the screaming baby. He was in his crib, he was safe, he was fine to cry for 10 minutes while I went off and regained control of myself before I went past that point of getting control back. There were times when I just wanted to shake that baby or throw him or ANYTHING and tell him to shut up. I never did as I found ways right from the start to control myself. I was able to walk out of the room, and because I lived with a support worker and her family at the time, I had that advantage of asking her to step in when I couldn't anymore, and she always did when I asked and would also often ask me if I wanted or needed help. I also had the advantage of being able to call my mom at 2 or 3 in the morning if I did need to regain my composure. Even if I woke my mom up at 3 in the morning and she had work the next day, it was alright. Not all parents have this advantage of having someone to call or step in. A baby's cry is annoying and frustrating for a reason - so you don't ignore it when they're trying to communicate! It's so you get up and do something FAST - feed, change, play, sing, hold, whatever. I often feel that I was lucky enough, as early as when DS was born, to find and have ways to help cope. If I didn't, I honestly don't know what I would have done, and I often don't want to think about it. DS was a very colicky baby. Fine during the day, but come evening, that was a different story. I can see it happening, where someone just loses it, but I also cannot accept it as a reasonable or proper way to handle a situation. It happens - I'm definitely not saying it should happen or when it does happen it's alright, but it does happen and you'd be surprised. |
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