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Bitter rant
Just a bitter rant. Tonight I went on a binge (solo) as tomorrow my daughter
is due back with her mother and I am just hoping and praying she comes back from Sweden. I think she will but I don't know. The bitter rant part is that people left because it was too hard the life we had and to try to let people relax the year someone left they had one holiday in St Lucia, three holidays in Zambia where they eventually settled and numerous nights out with old school friends suddenly discovered from back in 79 all in the one year. Also they only worked part time to make life easier. Muggins just worked, looked after kid and hoped other party would be able to relax after all the work they had put in looking after the house etc and had no holidays. sorry guys and I fully expect to be flamed. I am bitter. Right now I am bloody bitter. (also a bit drunk) I think I gave everything. For three years I took no break no holiday no weekend etc and now for the past year I have the same but I am also mummy, daddy, breadwinner, there are no weekend breaks due to the country boundaries I am doing it 24/7 365 but it was 'hard' for other people???? I really thought I was doing the best for my family. In hindsight I probably should have stepped back and looked at human issues but you want to give everything you can and the best you can etc etc etc. If you want me to slow down then tell me FFS! I am not a mind reader! I now do the dad, the mum, the work,the kids play, I attend every performance of every school play she is in, I pay the school fees, the housing costs, I talk to the teachers when I think there are issues, do the cooking, pick up, transport, minding and I don't ask a thing from anyone. I am human too, its tough.I could use help. This Xmas only two people remembered me and sent me cards, my mother and my accountant. I gotta tell you it hurts. when you marry you lose the single friends, when you get a kid you tend to lose the ones without, when you split you are just a pariah. well, stuff the lot of you world. when i get back on top .... that boot you see in your face is gonna be mine!!! |
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On Sun, 4 Jan 2004 00:15:32 +0000 (UTC), "Andrew"
wrote: Just a bitter rant. Tonight I went on a binge (solo) as tomorrow my daughter is due back with her mother and I am just hoping and praying she comes back from Sweden. I think she will but I don't know. The bitter rant part is that people left because it was too hard the life we had and to try to let people relax the year someone left they had one holiday in St Lucia, three holidays in Zambia where they eventually settled and numerous nights out with old school friends suddenly discovered from back in 79 all in the one year. Also they only worked part time to make life easier. Muggins just worked, looked after kid and hoped other party would be able to relax after all the work they had put in looking after the house etc and had no holidays. sorry guys and I fully expect to be flamed. I am bitter. Right now I am bloody bitter. (also a bit drunk) I think I gave everything. For three years I took no break no holiday no weekend etc and now for the past year I have the same but I am also mummy, daddy, breadwinner, there are no weekend breaks due to the country boundaries I am doing it 24/7 365 but it was 'hard' for other people???? I really thought I was doing the best for my family. In hindsight I probably should have stepped back and looked at human issues but you want to give everything you can and the best you can etc etc etc. If you want me to slow down then tell me FFS! I am not a mind reader! I now do the dad, the mum, the work,the kids play, I attend every performance of every school play she is in, I pay the school fees, the housing costs, I talk to the teachers when I think there are issues, do the cooking, pick up, transport, minding and I don't ask a thing from anyone. I am human too, its tough.I could use help. This Xmas only two people remembered me and sent me cards, my mother and my accountant. I gotta tell you it hurts. when you marry you lose the single friends, when you get a kid you tend to lose the ones without, when you split you are just a pariah. well, stuff the lot of you world. when i get back on top .... that boot you see in your face is gonna be mine!!! Aw, Andrew, so sorry you're going through this right now. Your baby is going to be home tomorrow, your anxiety must be through the roof right now, I know that feeling believe me! Awful, the worry, when you don't know how the other parent will behave. It does you no good to be wired and sleep-deprived and it won't do your daughter any good either. Plus it will make the time your ex is staying that much more difficult for you to endure, so please try to rest tonight! After she's home, you won't be quite as interested in responses to this thread, as you'll be spending your nights peeking in on her and tucking her in instead of wanting a break. As kate said, it's hardest when they're younger. It is constant work when they're younger, and I have found that the older they get the more fun they are -- they pull more of their weight and their activities mesh better with mine as they grow (hiking with a four-year-old is a nightmare, as he's too big to carry but too small to go very far or very fast, but with an 8- and 9-year-old it's my favorite thing to do). As for friends, you once shared experiences with people in school or in different jobs, which you no longer share as those chapters in your life have ended. The couple-with-one-kid phase is the one you're missing out on and it's simply time for you to find the single-parent-with-kindergardener cohort in your area. Put an ad in the paper and set up a babysitting co-op, where you watch 4-5 kids one Saturday and the next three Saturdays you're off on your own while your daughter rotates among her new friends' houses. Start a book club and invite all parents so that nonmember spouses can watch the kids one Wednesday night a month (that one in particular saved my sanity for about 2 years -- never would have gotten through Shackleton's saga without it). Find a reliable young babysitter in the neighborhood who can help out for an hour here and there, not necessarily all-nighters. Other ideas escape me at the moment but you know what I mean. But first I hope you can rest tonight. I do know what you're going through and I'm so glad for you that it's almost over. Good luck negotiating the potential emotional mindfield with your ex when she's in town. You sound like such a great person, I hope you don't get hurt any more than you have already. lm |
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"lm" wrote in message ... On Sun, 4 Jan 2004 00:15:32 +0000 (UTC), "Andrew" wrote: Just a bitter rant. Tonight I went on a binge (solo) as tomorrow my daughter is due back with her mother and I am just hoping and praying she comes back from Sweden. I think she will but I don't know. The bitter rant part is that people left because it was too hard the life we had and to try to let people relax the year someone left they had one holiday in St Lucia, three holidays in Zambia where they eventually settled and numerous nights out with old school friends suddenly discovered from back in 79 all in the one year. Also they only worked part time to make life easier. Muggins just worked, looked after kid and hoped other party would be able to relax after all the work they had put in looking after the house etc and had no holidays. sorry guys and I fully expect to be flamed. I am bitter. Right now I am bloody bitter. (also a bit drunk) I think I gave everything. For three years I took no break no holiday no weekend etc and now for the past year I have the same but I am also mummy, daddy, breadwinner, there are no weekend breaks due to the country boundaries I am doing it 24/7 365 but it was 'hard' for other people???? I really thought I was doing the best for my family. In hindsight I probably should have stepped back and looked at human issues but you want to give everything you can and the best you can etc etc etc. If you want me to slow down then tell me FFS! I am not a mind reader! I now do the dad, the mum, the work,the kids play, I attend every performance of every school play she is in, I pay the school fees, the housing costs, I talk to the teachers when I think there are issues, do the cooking, pick up, transport, minding and I don't ask a thing from anyone. I am human too, its tough.I could use help. This Xmas only two people remembered me and sent me cards, my mother and my accountant. I gotta tell you it hurts. when you marry you lose the single friends, when you get a kid you tend to lose the ones without, when you split you are just a pariah. well, stuff the lot of you world. when i get back on top .... that boot you see in your face is gonna be mine!!! Aw, Andrew, so sorry you're going through this right now. Your baby is going to be home tomorrow, your anxiety must be through the roof right now, I know that feeling believe me! Awful, the worry, when you don't know how the other parent will behave. It does you no good to be wired and sleep-deprived and it won't do your daughter any good either. Plus it will make the time your ex is staying that much more difficult for you to endure, so please try to rest tonight! After she's home, you won't be quite as interested in responses to this thread, as you'll be spending your nights peeking in on her and tucking her in instead of wanting a break. As kate said, it's hardest when they're younger. It is constant work when they're younger, and I have found that the older they get the more fun they are -- they pull more of their weight and their activities mesh better with mine as they grow (hiking with a four-year-old is a nightmare, as he's too big to carry but too small to go very far or very fast, but with an 8- and 9-year-old it's my favorite thing to do). As for friends, you once shared experiences with people in school or in different jobs, which you no longer share as those chapters in your life have ended. The couple-with-one-kid phase is the one you're missing out on and it's simply time for you to find the single-parent-with-kindergardener cohort in your area. Put an ad in the paper and set up a babysitting co-op, where you watch 4-5 kids one Saturday and the next three Saturdays you're off on your own while your daughter rotates among her new friends' houses. Start a book club and invite all parents so that nonmember spouses can watch the kids one Wednesday night a month (that one in particular saved my sanity for about 2 years -- never would have gotten through Shackleton's saga without it). Find a reliable young babysitter in the neighborhood who can help out for an hour here and there, not necessarily all-nighters. Other ideas escape me at the moment but you know what I mean. But first I hope you can rest tonight. I do know what you're going through and I'm so glad for you that it's almost over. Good luck negotiating the potential emotional mindfield with your ex when she's in town. You sound like such a great person, I hope you don't get hurt any more than you have already. lm Hey, I think the baby sitting co-op is a brilliant idea, will see if I can get it going and let you know. This is the type of practical stuff I like from here like the practical advice given to some others I have seen. Andrew |
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Bitter rant
Andrew wrote in message ... Just a bitter rant. Tonight I went on a binge (solo) as tomorrow my daughter is due back with her mother and I am just hoping and praying she comes back from Sweden. I think she will but I don't know. The bitter rant part is that people left because it was too hard the life we had and to try to let people relax the year someone left they had one holiday in St Lucia, three holidays in Zambia where they eventually settled and numerous nights out with old school friends suddenly discovered from back in 79 all in the one year. Also they only worked part time to make life easier. Muggins just worked, looked after kid and hoped other party would be able to relax after all the work they had put in looking after the house etc and had no holidays. sorry guys and I fully expect to be flamed. I am bitter. Right now I am bloody bitter. (also a bit drunk) I think I gave everything. For three years I took no break no holiday no weekend etc and now for the past year I have the same but I am also mummy, daddy, breadwinner, there are no weekend breaks due to the country boundaries I am doing it 24/7 365 but it was 'hard' for other people???? I really thought I was doing the best for my family. In hindsight I probably should have stepped back and looked at human issues but you want to give everything you can and the best you can etc etc etc. If you want me to slow down then tell me FFS! I am not a mind reader! I now do the dad, the mum, the work,the kids play, I attend every performance of every school play she is in, I pay the school fees, the housing costs, I talk to the teachers when I think there are issues, do the cooking, pick up, transport, minding and I don't ask a thing from anyone. I am human too, its tough.I could use help. This Xmas only two people remembered me and sent me cards, my mother and my accountant. I gotta tell you it hurts. when you marry you lose the single friends, when you get a kid you tend to lose the ones without, when you split you are just a pariah. well, stuff the lot of you world. when i get back on top .... that boot you see in your face is gonna be mine!!! I want to offer you some kind words but first I have no idea what you are talking about in your first paragraph. Nothing like posting while intoxicated. I have long learned not to email or post. Of course I have not had a drink in months so that is easy. I think it is harder for parents who use to be with the partner and then the other leaves. I have always been a single parent so I know no different. Vent and get it out of your system. Don't worry about everyone else in the world, the only ones that should matter in your world is you and your kid. The only people that matter in my world is me and my kid. Call it selfish...... hell, maybe it is. Mostly though Andrew..... you are tough and kind. Don't get are stressed out thinking you have to be the perfect parent to make up for the absent parent. It just isn't going to happen. You can't me MOM and DAD. You are Dad. If you could use help..... have you asked for it? Tiff |
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"Tiffany" wrote in message ... Andrew wrote in message ... Just a bitter rant. Tonight I went on a binge (solo) as tomorrow my daughter is due back with her mother and I am just hoping and praying she comes back from Sweden. I think she will but I don't know. The bitter rant part is that people left because it was too hard the life we had and to try to let people relax the year someone left they had one holiday in St Lucia, three holidays in Zambia where they eventually settled and numerous nights out with old school friends suddenly discovered from back in 79 all in the one year. Also they only worked part time to make life easier. Muggins just worked, looked after kid and hoped other party would be able to relax after all the work they had put in looking after the house etc and had no holidays. sorry guys and I fully expect to be flamed. I am bitter. Right now I am bloody bitter. (also a bit drunk) I think I gave everything. For three years I took no break no holiday no weekend etc and now for the past year I have the same but I am also mummy, daddy, breadwinner, there are no weekend breaks due to the country boundaries I am doing it 24/7 365 but it was 'hard' for other people???? I really thought I was doing the best for my family. In hindsight I probably should have stepped back and looked at human issues but you want to give everything you can and the best you can etc etc etc. If you want me to slow down then tell me FFS! I am not a mind reader! I now do the dad, the mum, the work,the kids play, I attend every performance of every school play she is in, I pay the school fees, the housing costs, I talk to the teachers when I think there are issues, do the cooking, pick up, transport, minding and I don't ask a thing from anyone. I am human too, its tough.I could use help. This Xmas only two people remembered me and sent me cards, my mother and my accountant. I gotta tell you it hurts. when you marry you lose the single friends, when you get a kid you tend to lose the ones without, when you split you are just a pariah. well, stuff the lot of you world. when i get back on top .... that boot you see in your face is gonna be mine!!! I want to offer you some kind words but first I have no idea what you are talking about in your first paragraph. Nothing like posting while intoxicated. I have long learned not to email or post. Of course I have not had a drink in months so that is easy. I think it is harder for parents who use to be with the partner and then the other leaves. I have always been a single parent so I know no different. Vent and get it out of your system. Don't worry about everyone else in the world, the only ones that should matter in your world is you and your kid. The only people that matter in my world is me and my kid. Call it selfish...... hell, maybe it is. Mostly though Andrew..... you are tough and kind. Don't get are stressed out thinking you have to be the perfect parent to make up for the absent parent. It just isn't going to happen. You can't me MOM and DAD. You are Dad. If you could use help..... have you asked for it? Tiff Hi Tiff, Good old intoxication. Sorry, quick bit of background. My wife left the country Oct 2002 so no visitations or anything and her request to come and take our daughter to spend Xmas with my wifes dad in Sweden was the first 'visitation' type thing since then hence my worries. Happy New Year, Andrew |
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Andrew wrote in message ... "Tiffany" wrote in message ... Andrew wrote in message ... Just a bitter rant. Tonight I went on a binge (solo) as tomorrow my daughter is due back with her mother and I am just hoping and praying she comes back from Sweden. I think she will but I don't know. The bitter rant part is that people left because it was too hard the life we had and to try to let people relax the year someone left they had one holiday in St Lucia, three holidays in Zambia where they eventually settled and numerous nights out with old school friends suddenly discovered from back in 79 all in the one year. Also they only worked part time to make life easier. Muggins just worked, looked after kid and hoped other party would be able to relax after all the work they had put in looking after the house etc and had no holidays. sorry guys and I fully expect to be flamed. I am bitter. Right now I am bloody bitter. (also a bit drunk) I think I gave everything. For three years I took no break no holiday no weekend etc and now for the past year I have the same but I am also mummy, daddy, breadwinner, there are no weekend breaks due to the country boundaries I am doing it 24/7 365 but it was 'hard' for other people???? I really thought I was doing the best for my family. In hindsight I probably should have stepped back and looked at human issues but you want to give everything you can and the best you can etc etc etc. If you want me to slow down then tell me FFS! I am not a mind reader! I now do the dad, the mum, the work,the kids play, I attend every performance of every school play she is in, I pay the school fees, the housing costs, I talk to the teachers when I think there are issues, do the cooking, pick up, transport, minding and I don't ask a thing from anyone. I am human too, its tough.I could use help. This Xmas only two people remembered me and sent me cards, my mother and my accountant. I gotta tell you it hurts. when you marry you lose the single friends, when you get a kid you tend to lose the ones without, when you split you are just a pariah. well, stuff the lot of you world. when i get back on top .... that boot you see in your face is gonna be mine!!! I want to offer you some kind words but first I have no idea what you are talking about in your first paragraph. Nothing like posting while intoxicated. I have long learned not to email or post. Of course I have not had a drink in months so that is easy. I think it is harder for parents who use to be with the partner and then the other leaves. I have always been a single parent so I know no different. Vent and get it out of your system. Don't worry about everyone else in the world, the only ones that should matter in your world is you and your kid. The only people that matter in my world is me and my kid. Call it selfish...... hell, maybe it is. Mostly though Andrew..... you are tough and kind. Don't get are stressed out thinking you have to be the perfect parent to make up for the absent parent. It just isn't going to happen. You can't me MOM and DAD. You are Dad. If you could use help..... have you asked for it? Tiff Hi Tiff, Good old intoxication. Sorry, quick bit of background. My wife left the country Oct 2002 so no visitations or anything and her request to come and take our daughter to spend Xmas with my wifes dad in Sweden was the first 'visitation' type thing since then hence my worries. Happy New Year, Andrew Let us know when your daughter arrives home safely. T |
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"Tiffany" wrote in message ... Andrew wrote in message ... "Tiffany" wrote in message ... Andrew wrote in message ... Just a bitter rant. Tonight I went on a binge (solo) as tomorrow my daughter is due back with her mother and I am just hoping and praying she comes back from Sweden. I think she will but I don't know. The bitter rant part is that people left because it was too hard the life we had and to try to let people relax the year someone left they had one holiday in St Lucia, three holidays in Zambia where they eventually settled and numerous nights out with old school friends suddenly discovered from back in 79 all in the one year. Also they only worked part time to make life easier. Muggins just worked, looked after kid and hoped other party would be able to relax after all the work they had put in looking after the house etc and had no holidays. sorry guys and I fully expect to be flamed. I am bitter. Right now I am bloody bitter. (also a bit drunk) I think I gave everything. For three years I took no break no holiday no weekend etc and now for the past year I have the same but I am also mummy, daddy, breadwinner, there are no weekend breaks due to the country boundaries I am doing it 24/7 365 but it was 'hard' for other people???? I really thought I was doing the best for my family. In hindsight I probably should have stepped back and looked at human issues but you want to give everything you can and the best you can etc etc etc. If you want me to slow down then tell me FFS! I am not a mind reader! I now do the dad, the mum, the work,the kids play, I attend every performance of every school play she is in, I pay the school fees, the housing costs, I talk to the teachers when I think there are issues, do the cooking, pick up, transport, minding and I don't ask a thing from anyone. I am human too, its tough.I could use help. This Xmas only two people remembered me and sent me cards, my mother and my accountant. I gotta tell you it hurts. when you marry you lose the single friends, when you get a kid you tend to lose the ones without, when you split you are just a pariah. well, stuff the lot of you world. when i get back on top .... that boot you see in your face is gonna be mine!!! I want to offer you some kind words but first I have no idea what you are talking about in your first paragraph. Nothing like posting while intoxicated. I have long learned not to email or post. Of course I have not had a drink in months so that is easy. I think it is harder for parents who use to be with the partner and then the other leaves. I have always been a single parent so I know no different. Vent and get it out of your system. Don't worry about everyone else in the world, the only ones that should matter in your world is you and your kid. The only people that matter in my world is me and my kid. Call it selfish...... hell, maybe it is. Mostly though Andrew..... you are tough and kind. Don't get are stressed out thinking you have to be the perfect parent to make up for the absent parent. It just isn't going to happen. You can't me MOM and DAD. You are Dad. If you could use help..... have you asked for it? Tiff Hi Tiff, Good old intoxication. Sorry, quick bit of background. My wife left the country Oct 2002 so no visitations or anything and her request to come and take our daughter to spend Xmas with my wifes dad in Sweden was the first 'visitation' type thing since then hence my worries. Happy New Year, Andrew Let us know when your daughter arrives home safely. T T Thanks for concern. She got home 5 Jan. All happy and excited to be back. Andrew |
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Andrew wrote in message ... Just a bitter rant. Tonight I went on a binge (solo) as tomorrow my daughter is due back with her mother and I am just hoping and praying she comes back from Sweden. I think she will but I don't know. The bitter rant part is that people left because it was too hard the life we had and to try to let people relax the year someone left they had one holiday in St Lucia, three holidays in Zambia where they eventually settled and numerous nights out with old school friends suddenly discovered from back in 79 all in the one year. Also they only worked part time to make life easier. Muggins just worked, looked after kid and hoped other party would be able to relax after all the work they had put in looking after the house etc and had no holidays. sorry guys and I fully expect to be flamed. I am bitter. Right now I am bloody bitter. (also a bit drunk) I think I gave everything. For three years I took no break no holiday no weekend etc and now for the past year I have the same but I am also mummy, daddy, breadwinner, there are no weekend breaks due to the country boundaries I am doing it 24/7 365 but it was 'hard' for other people???? I really thought I was doing the best for my family. In hindsight I probably should have stepped back and looked at human issues but you want to give everything you can and the best you can etc etc etc. If you want me to slow down then tell me FFS! I am not a mind reader! I now do the dad, the mum, the work,the kids play, I attend every performance of every school play she is in, I pay the school fees, the housing costs, I talk to the teachers when I think there are issues, do the cooking, pick up, transport, minding and I don't ask a thing from anyone. I am human too, its tough.I could use help. This Xmas only two people remembered me and sent me cards, my mother and my accountant. I gotta tell you it hurts. when you marry you lose the single friends, when you get a kid you tend to lose the ones without, when you split you are just a pariah. well, stuff the lot of you world. when i get back on top .... that boot you see in your face is gonna be mine!!! Sorry Andrew, you are not going to like this post. The very things that you see in yourself as attributes, like the working hard to be the main provider, picking up on the housework and childcare, can just as easily be seen differently by others. You can also appear to be a sanctimonious, patriarchal, domineering prat. So who is responsible if your ex went on holiday four times in one year whilst you did not go in three years? Why should she bother with housework and childcare if she knew that you would pick up on her inadequacies? Don't tell me that at some point you didn't take a self satisfied opinion of yourself that you were the great provider by all your friends knowing that you were providing and facilitating all those holidays for your wife? I bet that you felt good about it, sort of gave you a big ego boost. Perhaps those friends also saw it differently, Andrew the sanctimonious arshole, who pays the school fee's, does the housework, works all hours and expects his sweet little lady to be there to sit down with when he deems it appropriate. He pays to send wife on exotic holidays whilst he works and works and plays the martyr all the time thinking that he is Mr Perfect the great provider. You overlooked your responsibilities towards quality time with your family. You are also to blame for what went wrong. If you are looking for a scapegoat then have a good look at yourself as you are at least 50% to blame. Don't give us all this crap about the martyrdom of being the 24/7 provider, it's what we all do here, many in far more difficult circumstances than you can possibly imagine. I know from your previous posts that you are capable of taking pleasure from the small things in life that really matter. The small priceless things that cost nothing concerning your daughters milestones and achievements. Going to all the school plays and sportsdays is, for me, a privilege. You make it sound like an obligation. You need to take a good long look at yourself, drop the pretences and martyrlike attitude and concentrate on the small details. Learn to take pleasure from them, re-invent yourself as the guy who does it all because he wants to and not so that he can be seen by the world at large as the great provider. Happy New Year. Dennis |
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On Sun, 4 Jan 2004 13:27:40 -0000, "Dennis Here"
youreply wrote: I know from your previous posts that you are capable of taking pleasure from the small things in life that really matter. The small priceless things that cost nothing concerning your daughters milestones and achievements. And it's because of that that you should have let him alone. Talk about sanctimonious! lm |
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lm wrote in message "Dennis Here" wrote: I know from your previous posts that you are capable of taking pleasure from the small things in life that really matter. The small priceless things that cost nothing concerning your daughters milestones and achievements. And it's because of that that you should have let him alone. Ah, the joy of the newsgroups. I get to respond as I read it. Can't please everyone all of the time. Talk about sanctimonious! But of course! I really was Mr. Perfect and nothing was ever my fault. ;-) Dennis |
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