Bitter rant

Just a bitter rant. Tonight I went on a binge (solo) as tomorrow my daughter
is due back with her mother and I am just hoping and praying she comes back
from Sweden. I think she will but I don't know. The bitter rant part is that
people left because it was too hard the life we had and to try to let people
relax the year someone left they had one holiday in St Lucia, three holidays
in Zambia where they eventually settled and numerous nights out with old
school friends suddenly discovered from back in 79 all in the one year. Also
they only worked part time to make life easier. Muggins just worked, looked
after kid and hoped other party would be able to relax after all the work
they had put in looking after the house etc and had no holidays.

sorry guys and I fully expect to be flamed. I am bitter. Right now I am
bloody bitter. (also a bit drunk) I think I gave everything. For three years
I took no break no holiday no weekend etc and now for the past year I have
the same but I am also mummy, daddy, breadwinner, there are no weekend
breaks due to the country boundaries I am doing it 24/7 365 but it was
'hard' for other people???? I really thought I was doing the best for my
family. In hindsight I probably should have stepped back and looked at human
issues but you want to give everything you can and the best you can etc etc
etc. If you want me to slow down then tell me FFS! I am not a mind reader! I
now do the dad, the mum, the work,the kids play, I attend every performance
of every school play she is in, I pay the school fees, the housing costs, I
talk to the teachers when I think there are issues, do the cooking, pick up,
transport, minding and I don't ask a thing from anyone. I am human too, its
tough.I could use help. This Xmas only two people remembered me and sent me
cards, my mother and my accountant. I gotta tell you it hurts. when you
marry you lose the single friends, when you get a kid you tend to lose the
ones without, when you split you are just a pariah. well, stuff the lot of
you world. when i get back on top ....

that boot you see in your face is gonna be mine!!!