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Need advice on whether to have a new child [LONG]
[MODS: Please note, I have also posted this to alt.support.step-parents, but can't tell from your FAQ whether this is technically a cross-post. There's certainly no spamming intended!] Hi folks, This is my first post to the group. I am trying to work through a difficult decision, and would really appreciate some input. I am in my late thirties, married for a second time. I have a seven year old son by my first marriage. My ex-wife and I get along well, and I have regular access to my son. He comes to us every Wednesday evening, and every other weekend. He has his own room in our house, and considers it a second home. My wife is as good a step-mum as I could wish for. She is very close to my son, and he seems as settled as he can be with the situation. My ex-wife has also remarried and they too have tried to provide as secure and happy an environment as they can for our son. We try very much to stress the positives - he has four loving parents, and eight doting grand-parents! Apart from some financial hassles, life is really pretty good. The problem is this: my wife wants her own child. She is a few years younger than me, but is really now starting to feel the 'biological clock' ticking. This is causing all sorts of issues for me. When we got together, we both wanted children, but agreed to wait until my son was happy with his new family arrangements (my ex-wife has recently re-married at the time). As time has passed (we have been married nearly two years now), I have grown more and more uncomfortable with the idea of us having a child of our own, to the point where if I was forced to make a final decision now, I would probably say no. Needless to say, this is putting the future of our relationship very much in the balance. My wife really doesn't feel there's a future for our relationship if she doesn't at least have the chance to have a child of her own. While I don't think I'll ever really understand the need a woman feels to have a child, I do acknowledge it. I certainly don't want her to live a life of resentment. I have several reasons for holding back, and have listed the most obvious ones below. I really don't know which are the most important in my mind, and it's not an exhaustive list. 1) On balance, I think the risk of disruption to my son outweighs the possible benefits. If my wife and I have a child, it will naturally spend all its time with us. My son spends about a third of his time with us, including holidays. I can't see how he will not feel, at least to some degree, like an outsider. It will be clear to him that my wife's feelings for him are not the same as those for our new child. Taking the age difference into account, I suspect the relationship between my son and a new child could only at best be nearer to an uncle-nephew/niece, than a brother-brother/sister. 2) As much as I love my wife and hope we will always be together (and am prepared to work at it!), I am painfully aware that relationships do break down. My first marriage lasted almost ten years, and I suspect neither of us ever imagined that we wouldn't be together 'till death us do part'. That is, of course, until it all started unravelling. Statistically, the chances for this second marriage are slimmer. Also, my wife and I have always stressed that we should support each other's growth and change in our relationship; in fact we wrote our vows especially to emphasise that. If my first wife and I grew apart, then it is possible that it will happen again, especially in a relationship where growth is encouraged. Whenever I contemplate what happened to my son as a result of my first marriage breaking up, and how it still affects his day-to-day life, I really can't imagine putting another child through that. I really can't imagine putting myself through it! 3) Frankly, I like things the way they are. If something happened to my ex-wife, and I had to look after my son full time, then I'd do it in a second. But I do actually enjoy having evenings when he's not around. At the very least, it gives me the opportunity to have some uninterrupted time with my wife. With a new baby on the scene, that would become infinitely more difficult. Right now, when there are hiccups in our relationship, it's because we're not spending enough quality time together. If that happens when the majority of our time is effectively child-less, how will it be when there are nappies to change? Financially we are not in a position to afford child care, and we're a long way from other members of our family. I love my wife very much, and appreciate the sacrifices she's made for the sake of our relationship. For example, the reason we live so far from our immediate families is so that we could be nearer my son. I really don't want to lose a beautiful relationship, but at the same time I really can't see much to outweigh these concerns. I would be extremely grateful to hear: 1) any thoughts on my reasons for holding back. I would prefer to hear comments on whether or not they're rational as opposed to judgements about how selfish I might be. 2) experiences from anyone who's been in the same situation as us. I have found lots of advice for having a baby in a step-family where all the children are living full-time with the family in question, but nothing that addresses the family with only partial access to the child. Many thanks to any and all who respond. Jules |
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It seems to me that you are being held back by hypotheticals. It's true your son could feel like an outsider, that his step-mother will like her bio-offspring more. So? I think you can't live your life trying to protect your son from all possible potential hurt. And yes, your marriage may break up, but it seems like you've done a textbook job of moving on from the first marriage. The only real problem that I see is 3: that you have little couple time now, and you see that as a problem. So you'd have to deal with even less for -- what -- 4 years until your son can babysit? Anyway, I don't think 1 and 2 are rational, but rather rationalizing to justify your choice. 3 is a real concern, but if you know about it heading in, well, you should be able to work through it. It's the topic I think you should discuss the most with your wife before you have a kid. scott DD 11 and DS 8.95 |
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I'm not sure what you are looking for. It really doesn't matter what
your reasons are for wanting or not wanting a child, since in the final analysis, having a child is always an emotional choice, rather than rational one. What matters more is the gap between what you want and what your wife wants. It doesn't matter if you are "right" or have great reasons all lined up. If she really wants a child...well, you can try out your great argument on her, but don't be surprised if logic gets you nowhere. This is a pretty black and white issue - have one or not - there is no 50'50 position possible... and you DID do a 180 on her (i.e. you told her you would have a child when the situation was settled, and you've changed your mind). Eventually has become never. So, what you gotta think through is how hard and fast your "never" is, and factor in what a future with her AND a kid is worth to you. Kids or no kids is a pretty fundamental life choice, and she took you on with a different deal on the table than is currently on offer. Mary G. Mom of three |
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Jules --
Reading your story reminded me of the night before my second daughter was born. I sat on the floor next to my firstborn's bed, looking at her, and thought, "It will never be the same again between the two of us." I was frightened about losing the very special relationship that seemed to come from her being my only child. But there wasn't much choice at that point, was there? And even though things were never the _same_ again, they were very good in many ways. Number two is a great joy, and I wouldn't wish to have lived my life without her. So yes, your life will change if you have a child with your second wife. And it will also change if you don't. And there's no guessing in advance whether it will change for better or for worse. My own guess is that you would come to adore a second child, and wonder how you could ever have hesitated. Children do that to us -- at least most of them. In other words, your doubts are understandable, but not really so different than the doubts of anyone trying to decide whether to bring a child into the world. 1) On balance, I think the risk of disruption to my son outweighs the possible benefits. If my wife and I have a child, it will naturally spend all its time with us. My son spends about a third of his time with us, including holidays. I can't see how he will not feel, at least to some degree, like an outsider. I really don't think this is as much of a concern as you are making of it. Your son will probably adjust just fine, and enjoy his relationship with the little one. Will _you_ love him any less than you do now? I think not. 2) As much as I love my wife and hope we will always be together (and am prepared to work at it!), I am painfully aware that relationships do break down. Again, this is true for anyone who has a child at any time. We all face these frightening possibilities. 3) Frankly, I like things the way they are. If something happened to my ex-wife, and I had to look after my son full time, then I'd do it in a second. But I do actually enjoy having evenings when he's not around. At the very least, it gives me the opportunity to have some uninterrupted time with my wife. Even babies sleep from time to time -- at least most of them do. While I was nursing, which was sometimes a nusiance, I sometimes used to tell myself, "Yeah, I'll be glad when this is over, but it will only be a couple of years out of my life, and then I'll be free again." The same thing is true about having a baby around. From your perspective, sixteen years probably looks like long time, but by then (if not much sooner) the new child would be going places and doing things without you. Of course, the timing is a bit off -- you want shared time with your wife _right now_, whereas she can't put off childbearing a lot longer. In short, I feel that your understandable concerns are not really insurmountable barriers. You will simply have to weigh your own nervousness about changing the status quo against your wife's desire to change it. Perhaps you could try to imagine yourself into her situation, loving a stepchild, but longing for one who was really your own. Your thoughtfulness about this is to be commended. Good luck. Peggy -- The Duke showed his lower teeth. "We all have our flaws," he said, "and mine is being wicked." --James Thurber |
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jl2000 wrote:
Needless to say, this is putting the future of our relationship very much in the balance. My wife really doesn't feel there's a future for our relationship if she doesn't at least have the chance to have a child of her own. While I don't think I'll ever really understand the need a woman feels to have a child, I do acknowledge it. I certainly don't want her to live a life of resentment. I have several reasons for holding back, and have listed the most obvious ones below. I really don't know which are the most important in my mind, and it's not an exhaustive list. 1) On balance, I think the risk of disruption to my son outweighs the possible benefits. [snip] You're already risking disruption to your son. What happens if your wife decides that she wants a child more then a future with you? How will a second divorce affect your son? However, if she agrees to continue, she will still have a nagging awareness that "that woman's son is what stops me from having *my* son." It might not surface much, and maybe she won't ever be aware of it on a conscious level, but it will be there, and will have an effect on the relationship between your son and his step-mother. -- Penny Gaines UK mum to three |
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Hi Mary, Thanks for you comments. I can't really disagree with anything you say, except that for me, making decisions purely on an emotional basis is out. I realise that I've changed my position since we got together, but that's what people do, change. I just need to hear that this has worked out for other people out there, or anything else that will nudge me away from my 50/50 position. Your comment about needing to consider what a future with my wife (and a child) is worth really helped - thank you. Jules |
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I'm a bit confused. Your reasons for not having a child with your new wife
were 1) It might upsets your son's life. 2) Your second marriage may not last. 3) You like things the way they are. You say you had an agreement to have a child together eventually. If you renege on this agreement your wife will either be bitterly disappointed and/or leave. So, going back to your reasons: 1) If she leaves won't it also disrupt your son's life? If she stays and is depressed, or maybe blames him for your lack of having the child she's dreamt of , wouldn't that all upset your son's life? 2) This is a great point. If you have a child that second marriage might not last. If she wants a child as much as you say it's very likely your marriage may not last either. On the other hand, did nothing good come out of the first marriage? If you had to live your life over again would you not have your first marriage and your son? 3) Things aren't going to stay the way they are no matter which way you go. Sorry about that, but that's the way it goes. So would you like things more with a child and this wife, or without either? |
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Hi Scott, It seems to me that you are being held back by hypotheticals. What else is there?! So? I think you can't live your life trying to protect your son from all possible potential hurt. I totally agree. But surely you tr to protect your children from preventable hurt? And yes, your marriage may break up, but it seems like you've done a textbook job of moving on from the first marriage. I hope you're not being flippant. I have worked and worked and worked to heal the hurt I caused when my first marriage failed (long story). I'd do it again if I *had* to, but I'd never choose to go through that again, and I wouldn't wish it on anyone else either. The only real problem that I see is 3: that you have little couple time now, and you see that as a problem. So you'd have to deal with even less for -- what -- 4 years until your son can babysit? Great lateral thinking! You really put a smile on my face! Anyway, I don't think 1 and 2 are rational, but rather rationalizing to justify your choice. I disagree, but that's being said on the other forum I posted to also, so maybe I'm just lying to myself? 3 is a real concern, but if you know about it heading in, well, you should be able to work through it. I guess. Thanks for your thoughtful comments. [Being new to all this, can I ask what 'DS' and 'DD' mean?] Jules PS - also great to be hearing from a guy! I'm getting a lot of stick from mums right now! |
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Thank you Peggy, that was a very thoughtful post.
Perhaps you could try to imagine yourself into her situation, loving a stepchild, but longing for one who was really your own. I do try. But realistically, I don't think a man could ever *want* a child the way some women *need* them! Regards, Jules |
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Hi Penny, What happens if your wife decides that she wants a child more then a future with you? How will a second divorce affect your son? Honestly? My wife asked me this, and here is the answer I gave her. My son is seven. He is extremely fond of my wife, but I'm really not sure if he loves her in any child-parent sense. Maybe, maybe not - who knows the mind of a seven year old? But... when there's a choice of someone to play with, he will choose me. If I'm not in the house when he comes round, he asks "where's daddy?". If it's the other way round, well my wife just isn't missed in the same way. I suppose his main thoughts would be a) well this has happened before, and it was worse the first time because that was mummy, and b) now I get daddy to myself. It might sound callous, and I might be underestimating his feelings, but he's just seven after all. As to your other point: maybe she won't ever be aware of it on a conscious level, but it will be there It already is. Her knowing that she is (currently) being denied the chance to have a child affects her frequently. She describes the feeling as a kind of grief. I hate to see her going through this, which is why we feel, for better or worse, a final decision is going to have to be made sooner rather than later. Regards, Jules |
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